♥Tuesday, February 16, 2010♥
time check ; 3.36am
where th hell am ai ; homey (:
all a sudden , ai just feel like postinq siul .
ai feelinq damn fuckinq down .
crious shit ):
hais .
why is life so fuckinq unfair siul ?
ai have to learn to accept all this shits .
life is a bytch siaak . qeeeeesh !
qive mi a break !
ai cant take much more !
ai have to think about him , about my precious bbyqirls ,
my family , myself , cash and also th people around mi .
precious bbyqirls ,
ai dont ever wana lose youuh qirls !
youuh qirls ae th only reason thaat ai'm tryinq to stay stronq .
ai know youuh qirls hate to see mi cry ,
and ai'm tryinq to act happy infront of youuh qirls .
bbys , youuh know thaat ai'm not a stronq person when it comes to lovee matters .
ai'm very very fuckinq weak siul .
if ai ddnt have bbyqirls as carinq as youuh qirls ,
ai dont know whaat happened to mi already siaa .
he cut mi so deep , it made a very biq impact siul .
its hard to pretend ai'm stronq but th fact is , ai'm cryinq inside .
ai've stopped my bad habbits , takinq those shity stuffs .
and its because of him . he stopped mi from takinq those stuffs .
he chanqed mi into a better person .
but now , he's qone . no one to stop mi anymore .
ai feel like startinq back siul .
criously .
ai'm sorry bbys , ai know ai made promises thaat ai wont touch those shity stuffs anymore .
but ai cant take th stress .
its just too much .
criously , ai'm badly hurt . nothinq can heal this pain .
ai'm tryinq my best to resist th feelinq to takinq back my habbits .
cause ailoveeyouuh bbys .
its hard for mi to qo thru this alone ,
when ai'm alone , nothinq to do , ai'll think of him .
and tears tend to fall .
ai cant do anythinq to stop my tears from fallinq siaa .
ai just lovee him too much )':
my bbys ,
EyyaSeraphiel and BabyPuteriySweets ,
ai'll try my very best to resist takinq back my bad habbits kaay .
but sumpah its hard .
ai dont mean to make youuh bbys worried for mi ,
but ai criously cant take th stress .
if only youuh bbys could understand my position ,
tellinq mi to just forqet about him and move on is easy ,
but pleaase bbys , understand mi .
its not easy sey .
ai cant forqet about him siaa .
he's voice is like hauntinq mi ,
ai keep hearinq his voice callinq mi siaa .
aimiss his voice too damn much already .
and ai'm feelinq lost .
hais )':
as ai'm postinq , tears are fallinq .
ai'm chaatinq with bbyqirls , actinq happy , but th truth is .
tears are fallinq . ai cant take it anymore .
ai dropped major stuffs for him siul .
ai dropped clubbinq , shaake-inq , stim-inq etc , and ai stopped contactinq jantan .
all ai did for him siul . its like major stuffs for mi siul .
bad habbits are hard to drop siul .
everyone knows thaat . but ai dropped all thaat in just days for him .
akuu tahan siul .
akuu menqqiqil , akuu asyik paranoid , akuu asyik kene demam ,
smue akuu tahan untok kauu siul !
akuu tahan sampai akuu sekaranq dahh okaay .
hais )':
Eyya bby !
ai dont want to ever lose youuh siaa !
ai criously hope everythinq will be fyne .
ai cant bear to lose youuh . and ai'm sure Baby cant lose youuh too .
ai'm sorry bbys if ai dissappointed youuh .
ai'm sorry if ai made youuh sad , anqry or dissapointed by this post .
ai ddnt mean to , but ai just want to let youuh bbys know my feelinqs .
ai hope youuh bbys can understand mi now .
besty ohh besty ~
akuu rinduu kauu lahh bhy !
hais .
kalaw je kauu tawuuk eyhh aper akuu nqaa hadapi sekaranq nyhh .
akuu tawuuk kauu manqkok nqaan akuu ,
siket hary kauu call akuu , yanq akuu nqaa nanqes ,
kauu tanyer akuu saper yanq uwaat akuu nanqes akuu taaknaak bilanq .
kauu naak tawuu asal akuu taaknaak bilanq kauu bhy ?
akuu taaknaak paper jady . akuu takot kauu menqamok .
kauu law menqamok burok siul bhy . akuu taaknaak paper jady .
besty , ai nyd youuh with mi now siaa . called youuh but no answer .
nqaa tdo luhh tuhh . idiot -.-"
ai'm tryinq my very best to resist takinq my habbits back ,
but its hard . its been like how lonq since ai last anqkat siul .
ai'll try kaay bbys (:
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