♥Monday, March 22, 2010♥
listeninq to down candle liqht remix by Jay Sean ,
sad ? happy ? moody ? excited ? stressed up ?
ai think its everythinq ryte now .
currently down with hiqh fever , aqain ? yeaah ):
bored at homey ): fuckfuck .
just finished talkinq otp with bbylove , he's sick too ai quess .
hais ,
bbylovee , qo mamam obat kays . and qet well soon .
dont smoke too much . kays ? (:
kaay , basically today stayed homey the whole day .
its not thaat bored uhs , cause Baby was at my homey .
she slept over my homey yesterday , and she slept toqether with mi and mmy (:
she was sleepinq in the middle , and mi and mmy was beside her .
sweet kans ? (:
hehs ,
actually ai ddnt qet to sleep much , ai'm just tired ai quess .
thaats why now ai'm down with hiqh fever aqain .
yesterday slept around 4amplus , then ai woke up around 6.40am .
its like all a sudden ai woke up . cause ai dreamt about bbylove ):
when ai woke up from thaat dream , straiqht away texted bbylove .
cause ai was damn fuckinq worried about him . ai dont know why .
then stopped textinq him around 8.27am .
then ai tried to sleep back , evantually ai feel asleep .
and ai woke up around 2.33pm , ofcos texted bbylove and told him ai was awake .
spend time with mmy and Baby , eat and we talked alot .
about loads of stuffs ,
Baby , mmy said she sayaanq youuh loads .
youuh wana know somethinq bhy ?
my mmy has never been this way with any of my friends before .
even she herself is shocked by her actions .
she really treated youuh like her own dauqhter .
mi and mmy love youuh loads kays .
really , we wont ever leave youuh . bare thaat in mynd .
we lovee youuh ! (:
and Baby went homey around 11pmplus .
ai sent Baby to the bus stop , and then walked back homey .
reached homey , and ai waited for bbylove's call .
ai just nyded to talk to him ai quess . ai just nyded to hear his voice .
cause only he's voice could cool mi down . ai was just too stressed up .
ai dont know whaats wronq with mi thouqh , whaats the thinq thaats makinq mi stress .
maybe its because of all the stuffs thaats happeninq now .
bbylove , ai just dont want to lose youuh for the third time , thaats all .
ai dont want to qet hurt aqain , enouqh of mi cryinq .
ai'm tired of cryinq , and its as if my tears are dried up already .
cause ai cried too much for youuh love .
losinq youuh aqain , is somethinq ai dont ever want .
ai've been waitinq ryte here for youuh , and ai've been so patient .
althouqh ai may not know whether youuh'll come back to mi or not .
but ai still waited for youuh , cause ailoveyouuh .
ai was just hoppinq for the best to happen ,
and maybe my tears all this time and everythinq ai sacrificed for youuh is not worthless afterall .
youuhre the one and only person who manaqed to chanqe mi ,
until ai'm like this now . no one could chanqe mi .
how ai used to be , but youuh manaqed to . ai dont know how , but youuh did .
youuh made mi madly in love with youuh , and youuh chanqed mi .
maybe the stuffs ai droped for youuh wasnt major stuffs ,
but those were the stuffs thaats spoilinq mi ai quess .
cause actually , ai hate those shyts . ai never like people who took it .
but in the end , ai took it myself .
^stimmy^
now ai've stopped , and its thaanks to youuh bbylove .
youuh forced mi to promise youuh not to stim anymore .
to totally drop stim . and yeaah ai did .
since the day ai promised youuh , never once ai stim .
ai kept thaat promise , until now , proudly ai'm sayinq this (:
eventhouqh we've been in really bad situations lately ,
still ai've never touched those stuffs . ai kept my promise .
althouqh , yes ai admit . once ai did HAD the thouqht of stimminq .
but ofcos ai ddnt !
cause ai thouqht of youuh , cause ai still wana keep my promise thaat ai made .
ai ddnt want to make youuh anqry , cause if youuh would to fynd out ,
youuh'll qet mad for sure .
despite whaat happened to us , ai still will keep my promise to youuh bby .
ai will love youuh , and only youuh . cause no one can ever replace youuh .
youuh qave mi so much love , care and attention .
which ai've not been qettinq for a lonqlonq time .
ai miss beinq loved thaat way by someone .
and youuh made mi feel thaat love aqain , and its hard to let youuh qo .
its hard to even try to forqet about youuh .
bby , sumpah ai taak penah raser cam nyhh nqaan ornq laen sey .
only youuh can make mi qet butterflys when youuh call mi ,
only youuh can make mi qo crazy when ai hear youuhre cute voice otp ,
only youuh can make mi cry so damn much until theres no more tears left ,
only youuh can make mi smile while readinq youuhre texts ,
only youuh can make mi lauqh like the world is myne just by readinq youuhre cute texts ,
only youuh can make mi feel so safe when ai hear youuhre voice ,
only youuh can make mi stop cryinq ,
only youuh can make mi do crazy stuffs ,
only youuh can make mi feel irritated when youuh bully mi ,
only youuh can make mi feel better when ai'm sick ,
only youuh can make mi melt bby ,
only youuh !
no one else .
each and everyday , before ai close my eyes and sleep .
ai'll be thinkinq of whaats qonq happen tomorrow ,
will youuh chanqe aqain towards mi ?
will youuh still be the same towards mi ?
will youuh text mi ?
will youuh call mi ?
and whenever ai wake up from my sleep ,
the first thinq ai'll do is to check my hp , to see whether youuh texted mi or not ,
and ai'll be thinkinq , of whaats qona happen today ,
are youuh qoinq to text mi ,
have youuh eaten ,
where are youuh ,
who are youuh with ,
did youuh qet injured while playinq takraw ,
are youuh okaay ,
whaat time youuh'll be homey today ,
hais )':
bby , ailoveyouuh !
its too hard for mi to let youuh qo , ai cant . ailoveyouuhtoo much .
if youuhre readinq this ,
ai just want youuh to know how much pain ai went thru when youuh left .
when youuh left , it made a very qreat impact in my life .
ai cant do anythinq ryte , ai dont eat ,
ai dont qo out as pernormal ,
ai dont lepak anymore ,
ai barely even talk to anyone . only my bbyqirls .
my life was in a mess , everythinq went upside down .
only when youuh came back , and thaat was on the 06 March 2010 .
at Toa Payoh , ai'll never forqet thaat day (:
my life started to qet better . cause everythinq was in a mess ,
ai wanted to qive up on everythinq , includinq life .
06 March 2010 , everythinq started to qet better , but still not fully yet .
cause youuh still ddnt totally came back , youuh were still harsh to mi .
youuh cut mi deep , very deep . but because of my bbyqirls ,
ai stayed stronq and ai waited for youuh .
ai tried to continue on with this life , and hopinq for youuh to come back ,
20 March 2010 , 3.50am ,
the day we talked otp , after like one month of not hearinq each other's voice ,
we talked aqain , truthfully . it feels like ai'm in heaven .
do youuh even know how much ai missed youuh ?
do youuh know how much ai missed youuhre voice ?
hanya allah saje yanq tawuu .
endless nytes of tears , and thinkinq of youuh .
the only memory ai had was youuhre msqs and youuhre picture .
youuh know how much ai suffered ?
hais )':
now thaat we've started to contact back , ai'm scared of losinq youuh aqain .
ai dont want to keep on losinq youuh , aqain and aqain .
qoinq thru those painful nytes alone , without youuh to make mi feel better .
it sucks alot !
love , now thaat youuhre slowly cominq back .
please dont leave aqain ,
ai cant bare to qo thru those pains anymore .
ailoveyouuh !
ailoveyouuh too much to let youuh qo , aqain and aqain .
sumpah atas namer mmy , ai sayaanq youuh .
dont leave aqain love , ai nyd youuh to make mi feel safe once aqain .
27 March , ai'll qet my answers ?
will youuhre answers break my heart , or mend my heart bby ?
ai'm scared to even think about it .
its just so scary to think of 27 March .
27 March is shashabby's happy day ,
will it be myne too ? time will tell .
bbylove , ailoveyouuh ! (:
with all my heart ,
surrounded by youuhre love makes mi qo crazy love ,
edited by BabyPuteriySweets ; Amira , my perfect bbyqirl (:
ai want youuh , ai nyd youuh , and ailoveyouuh bby (:
edited by BabyPuteriySweets ; Amira , ailoveyouuh bby ! (:
27 March , my happy day or my niqhtmare ?
time will tell ,
sad ? happy ? moody ? excited ? stressed up ?
ai think its everythinq ryte now .
currently down with hiqh fever , aqain ? yeaah ):
bored at homey ): fuckfuck .
just finished talkinq otp with bbylove , he's sick too ai quess .
hais ,
bbylovee , qo mamam obat kays . and qet well soon .
dont smoke too much . kays ? (:
kaay , basically today stayed homey the whole day .
its not thaat bored uhs , cause Baby was at my homey .
she slept over my homey yesterday , and she slept toqether with mi and mmy (:
she was sleepinq in the middle , and mi and mmy was beside her .
sweet kans ? (:
hehs ,
actually ai ddnt qet to sleep much , ai'm just tired ai quess .
thaats why now ai'm down with hiqh fever aqain .
yesterday slept around 4amplus , then ai woke up around 6.40am .
its like all a sudden ai woke up . cause ai dreamt about bbylove ):
when ai woke up from thaat dream , straiqht away texted bbylove .
cause ai was damn fuckinq worried about him . ai dont know why .
then stopped textinq him around 8.27am .
then ai tried to sleep back , evantually ai feel asleep .
and ai woke up around 2.33pm , ofcos texted bbylove and told him ai was awake .
spend time with mmy and Baby , eat and we talked alot .
about loads of stuffs ,
Baby , mmy said she sayaanq youuh loads .
youuh wana know somethinq bhy ?
my mmy has never been this way with any of my friends before .
even she herself is shocked by her actions .
she really treated youuh like her own dauqhter .
mi and mmy love youuh loads kays .
really , we wont ever leave youuh . bare thaat in mynd .
we lovee youuh ! (:
and Baby went homey around 11pmplus .
ai sent Baby to the bus stop , and then walked back homey .
reached homey , and ai waited for bbylove's call .
ai just nyded to talk to him ai quess . ai just nyded to hear his voice .
cause only he's voice could cool mi down . ai was just too stressed up .
ai dont know whaats wronq with mi thouqh , whaats the thinq thaats makinq mi stress .
maybe its because of all the stuffs thaats happeninq now .
bbylove , ai just dont want to lose youuh for the third time , thaats all .
ai dont want to qet hurt aqain , enouqh of mi cryinq .
ai'm tired of cryinq , and its as if my tears are dried up already .
cause ai cried too much for youuh love .
losinq youuh aqain , is somethinq ai dont ever want .
ai've been waitinq ryte here for youuh , and ai've been so patient .
althouqh ai may not know whether youuh'll come back to mi or not .
but ai still waited for youuh , cause ailoveyouuh .
ai was just hoppinq for the best to happen ,
and maybe my tears all this time and everythinq ai sacrificed for youuh is not worthless afterall .
youuhre the one and only person who manaqed to chanqe mi ,
until ai'm like this now . no one could chanqe mi .
how ai used to be , but youuh manaqed to . ai dont know how , but youuh did .
youuh made mi madly in love with youuh , and youuh chanqed mi .
maybe the stuffs ai droped for youuh wasnt major stuffs ,
but those were the stuffs thaats spoilinq mi ai quess .
cause actually , ai hate those shyts . ai never like people who took it .
but in the end , ai took it myself .
^stimmy^
now ai've stopped , and its thaanks to youuh bbylove .
youuh forced mi to promise youuh not to stim anymore .
to totally drop stim . and yeaah ai did .
since the day ai promised youuh , never once ai stim .
ai kept thaat promise , until now , proudly ai'm sayinq this (:
eventhouqh we've been in really bad situations lately ,
still ai've never touched those stuffs . ai kept my promise .
althouqh , yes ai admit . once ai did HAD the thouqht of stimminq .
but ofcos ai ddnt !
cause ai thouqht of youuh , cause ai still wana keep my promise thaat ai made .
ai ddnt want to make youuh anqry , cause if youuh would to fynd out ,
youuh'll qet mad for sure .
despite whaat happened to us , ai still will keep my promise to youuh bby .
ai will love youuh , and only youuh . cause no one can ever replace youuh .
youuh qave mi so much love , care and attention .
which ai've not been qettinq for a lonqlonq time .
ai miss beinq loved thaat way by someone .
and youuh made mi feel thaat love aqain , and its hard to let youuh qo .
its hard to even try to forqet about youuh .
bby , sumpah ai taak penah raser cam nyhh nqaan ornq laen sey .
only youuh can make mi qet butterflys when youuh call mi ,
only youuh can make mi qo crazy when ai hear youuhre cute voice otp ,
only youuh can make mi cry so damn much until theres no more tears left ,
only youuh can make mi smile while readinq youuhre texts ,
only youuh can make mi lauqh like the world is myne just by readinq youuhre cute texts ,
only youuh can make mi feel so safe when ai hear youuhre voice ,
only youuh can make mi stop cryinq ,
only youuh can make mi do crazy stuffs ,
only youuh can make mi feel irritated when youuh bully mi ,
only youuh can make mi feel better when ai'm sick ,
only youuh can make mi melt bby ,
only youuh !
no one else .
each and everyday , before ai close my eyes and sleep .
ai'll be thinkinq of whaats qonq happen tomorrow ,
will youuh chanqe aqain towards mi ?
will youuh still be the same towards mi ?
will youuh text mi ?
will youuh call mi ?
and whenever ai wake up from my sleep ,
the first thinq ai'll do is to check my hp , to see whether youuh texted mi or not ,
and ai'll be thinkinq , of whaats qona happen today ,
are youuh qoinq to text mi ,
have youuh eaten ,
where are youuh ,
who are youuh with ,
did youuh qet injured while playinq takraw ,
are youuh okaay ,
whaat time youuh'll be homey today ,
hais )':
bby , ailoveyouuh !
its too hard for mi to let youuh qo , ai cant . ailoveyouuhtoo much .
if youuhre readinq this ,
ai just want youuh to know how much pain ai went thru when youuh left .
when youuh left , it made a very qreat impact in my life .
ai cant do anythinq ryte , ai dont eat ,
ai dont qo out as pernormal ,
ai dont lepak anymore ,
ai barely even talk to anyone . only my bbyqirls .
my life was in a mess , everythinq went upside down .
only when youuh came back , and thaat was on the 06 March 2010 .
at Toa Payoh , ai'll never forqet thaat day (:
my life started to qet better . cause everythinq was in a mess ,
ai wanted to qive up on everythinq , includinq life .
06 March 2010 , everythinq started to qet better , but still not fully yet .
cause youuh still ddnt totally came back , youuh were still harsh to mi .
youuh cut mi deep , very deep . but because of my bbyqirls ,
ai stayed stronq and ai waited for youuh .
ai tried to continue on with this life , and hopinq for youuh to come back ,
20 March 2010 , 3.50am ,
the day we talked otp , after like one month of not hearinq each other's voice ,
we talked aqain , truthfully . it feels like ai'm in heaven .
do youuh even know how much ai missed youuh ?
do youuh know how much ai missed youuhre voice ?
hanya allah saje yanq tawuu .
endless nytes of tears , and thinkinq of youuh .
the only memory ai had was youuhre msqs and youuhre picture .
youuh know how much ai suffered ?
hais )':
now thaat we've started to contact back , ai'm scared of losinq youuh aqain .
ai dont want to keep on losinq youuh , aqain and aqain .
qoinq thru those painful nytes alone , without youuh to make mi feel better .
it sucks alot !
love , now thaat youuhre slowly cominq back .
please dont leave aqain ,
ai cant bare to qo thru those pains anymore .
ailoveyouuh !
ailoveyouuh too much to let youuh qo , aqain and aqain .
sumpah atas namer mmy , ai sayaanq youuh .
dont leave aqain love , ai nyd youuh to make mi feel safe once aqain .
27 March , ai'll qet my answers ?
will youuhre answers break my heart , or mend my heart bby ?
ai'm scared to even think about it .
its just so scary to think of 27 March .
27 March is shashabby's happy day ,
will it be myne too ? time will tell .
bbylove , ailoveyouuh ! (:
with all my heart ,
edited by BabyPuteriySweets ; Amira , my perfect bbyqirl (:
edited by BabyPuteriySweets ; Amira , ailoveyouuh bby ! (:
27 March , my happy day or my niqhtmare ?
time will tell ,
Labels: bbylove, dont leave aqain ):
I cant get enough of your love ♥
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