♥Friday, March 26, 2010♥
MyCintaBelo ,
ohhh bby , ai do hope youuh read this post .
cause its for youuh .
the first time we kenal each other , and after we started contactinq .
ai thouqht thaat we'll never ever qo anywhere far .
ai thouqht thaat we'll only be like contactinq , nothinq more .
but ai quess ai was wronq , cause now ai'm madly in love with youuh boy .
ai cant explain this feelinq , cause ai dont know how ai could fall for youuh .
from the start , ai felt very damn confortable with youuh .
which ai myself dont know why , but yeaah its true .
whenever ai talked to youuh , youuh always made mi happy .
youuh always made mi smile , all my happiness is because of youuh .
youuh always cheer mi up , and whenever ai'm talkinq to youuh ai'm always happy .
since ai broke up with my ex afiq , ai was always moody and stuffs .
until we kenal . youuh brinq happiness into my life .
ai will never forqet those moments with youuh .
youuh sacrificed alot of mi , and thaats the reason why ai'll never forqet our happy moments .
the times when we used to talk evernyte otp , we forqot about the world .
youuhre schoolinq , but youuh sacrificed youuhre sleep cause youuh wanted to talk to mi .
or sometimes youuh'll only sleep for 1hour .
youuh were so damn fuckinq sweet . without any sweet talks , youuhre already sweet .
by youuhre actions , whaat youuh did is so damn sweer dear .
all youuhre care and attention for mi , made mi fall for youuh .
youuh ddnt even qave mi any sweet talks , but somehow ai fell in love with youuh .
when ai cried as ai was thinkinq of my ex , youuh were the one who made mi stop cryinq .
ohhh boy , youuhre so damn sweet .
as time qoes by , feelinq tend to qrow . more and more .
everyone will surely have fiqhts , and so did we .
our first fiqht , youuh ddnt sleep for two days .
mi on the other hand , cant concentrate on my work .
ai kept on breakinq thinqs , ai was damn clumsy .
and ai kept on thinkinq of youuh . hais ,
after we made up from our first fiqht , we became like normal aqain .
and there came our second fiqht , thaat fiqht made mi realise thaat ailoveyouuh .
cause ai was scared of losinq youuh .
and the story qoes on , ai was already lovinq youuh damn much .
hais ,
love , we were just fyne . whaat happened to us ?
why are we in this situation now ?
why did this had to happen ?
ai'm badly hurt by all this , are youuh too ?
hais ):
youuh know whaat ai went thru when youuh left , how hurt ai was .
youuh know everythinq ,
but do youuh even care anymore ??
this is not whaat ai want if ai knew this was qoinq to happen ,
ai wont let myself fall in love with youuh .
ai told youuh before , ai'm scared of fallinq in love .
ai'm scared of qettinq hurt aqain , quys are all jerks .
youuh told mi not to worry , youuh wont hurt mi .
youuh told mi thaat youuhre different from other quys .
but where are all youuhre words ??
where did it all qo to love ?
ai told youuh thaat all quys are the same , unless one proves mi wronq .
youuh told mi thaat youuhre qona prove mi wronq .
but whaat is this ??
youuhre not provinq mi wronq , youuhre provinq to mi thaat youuhre the same as the rest .
youuh ate all youuhre words dear .
why youuh keep on hurtinq mi like this ?
why ?!
isnt all my sufferinqs enouqh ??
whaats happeninq to youuh love ?
youuh chanqed . not for the better , but for the worst .
youuhre not like this before , but now ?
ya ai know , people chanqe . but not this way .
youuh chanqed mi into a better person , but youuhre self ??
ai dropped clubbinq for youuh ,
ai dropped stimminq for youuh ,
ai dropped contactinq quys for youuh ,
ai dropped lepak-inq for youuh ,
ai listened to everythinq youuh said , never once ai qo aqainst youuhre words .
ai always do as youuh say ,
when youuh told mi to stay at home , ai did .
when youuh asked mi not to ton , ai did .
when youuh tell mi to rest , ai did .
when youuh asked mi to work properly , ai did .
ai always do as youuh say .
ai dont mynd listeninq to youuh , really .
ai'm not complaininq , whaatever youuh asked mi to do ,
is always the best for mi . youuh always asked mi to do thinqs thaat are not bad for mi .
and ai'm qlad thaat youuh came into my life , cause ai'm a better person now .
thaanks to youuh love .
my mmy likes youuh alot , ai dont know why .
cause she said thaat since ai qot to know youuh , ai chanqed alot .
ai'm much of a better person now .
ai dont do stuffs thaat was spoilinq mi .
every mum wants the best for their dauqhter ryte , so yeaah .
mmy was so happy seeinq the chanqe in mi , and so was abah .
but then aqain , it just had to end .
*sobs*
youuh left , but youuh came back .
youuh came back not like the real youuh , but more of like a part of "youuh" thaat ai've never known .
it feels as if ai dont even know youuh anymore .
youuhre totally different . youuhre not the old youuh thaat ai know .
ai dont know who youuh are now , hais .
youuh came back with all youuhre harsh words , and youuhre harsh attitude .
which is hard for mi to tolerate . but ai had to , cause of love .
ai took everythinq thaat youuh throw at my way .
ai kept silence , and ai was just beinq very patient .
ai waited for youuh , and ai couldnt care of how lonq it may take .
ai would still wait , but youuhre harsh words and youuhre harsh attitude ,
ai just cant take it .
its hurtinq mi damn much . its killinq mi .
youuh may not know whaat ai'm qoinq thru here ,
cause only ai know , only mi .
everynyte one cut , yeaah . it happened .
but when youuh found out , youuh qot mad .
and youuh said ai was stupid to do thaat .
ya , ai'm stupid . for every sinqle reason .
ai admit , ai am stupid .
but who made mi do all those stupid stuffs ?
ai was beinq stupid because of who ?
ai felt lost in this cruel world without youuh by my side .
ai ddnt know whaat to do or whaat to think .
ai was in a mess , ai couldnt do anythinq ryte .
everythinq ai did seemed so wronq .
ai just lost my mynd for awhile , hais .
because of my cuts , youuh qot mad . and only for thaat moment ,
ai saw the old youuh , back aqain .
then aqain , youuh chanqed back into thaat someone ai dont know .
why youuh keep on playinq this qames with mi ?
bby , ai have feelinqs too youuh know .
ai've thouqht many times of doinq stupid stuffs , but ai ddnt do it cause of youuh .
ai thouqht of youuh , and ai ddnt want youuh to qet mad .
ai kept all of my promises , but where are all youuhre promises ?
ai kept myne , but youuhres ?
hais ):
love , aimissyouuh so damn fuckinq much .
and ai nyd youuh with mi ):
whaats happeninq to us ? when is all this qoinq to end ?
now thaat ai'm sick , youuh dont allow mi to smoke .
and ai listened to whaat youuh told mi ,
till now , it has been 4days already thaat ai've not touched ciqqy .
just imaqine , for someone who has been smokinq since the aqe of 10 ,
and ai've never qone thru 1day without smokinq ,
because of youuh , ai sacrificed and now ai went thru 4days without smokinq .
mmy said thaat youuh care about mi thaats why youuh dont allow mi to smoke .
but bhy , is thaat true ?
bby , dont qet mi wronq . ai'm not complaininq .
ai denqar cakaap youuh nqaan ikhlas , sumpah .
but ai just want youuh to know whaat are the stuffs thaat ai've sacrificed for youuh .
thaats all . ai just want youuh to open youuhre eyes .
realise whaat youuh've been doinq all this time .
youuh've been hurtinq mi badlly .
do youuh know how much ai missed youuh ?
do youuh know how much ai cried for youuh ?
do youuh know how much ai wanted youuh back ?
do youuh know how much thinqs ai've sacrificed for youuh ?
do youuh know how much ai suffered ?
do youuh know how hurt ai am deep inside ?
do youuh know how much ailoveyouuh ?
hais ,
if only ai can do somethinq to prove to youuh , ai will .
even if it means riskinq my life dear , ai would .
cause no one can ever replace youuh .
youuhre someone special to mi , youuhre different from others .
youuhre the only person who could make mi happy all the time .
youuh made mi forqet about the world , youuh made mi forqet about everythinq .
love , youuhre the only one who could make mi qo crazy .
sayaanq , ai want youuh back !
ai wonder ,
have youuh ever thouqht of our happy memories toqether ?
have youuh ever missed our happy moments ?
do youuh miss mi ?
do youuh miss irritatinq mi ?
do youuh miss my voice ?
do youuh miss mi irritatinq youuh ?
do youuh still care about mi ?
do youuh still love mi ?
do youuh still want to be with mi ?
ai kept thinkinq about all this , ai cant qet youuh out of my mynd .
where ever ai qo , youuh'll always be on my mynd .
ai'm always wonderinq have youuh eaten ,
where are youuh ,
did youuh qet injured while playinq takraw ,
whaat time youuh'll be home ,
whaat youuhre doinq at home ,
how are youuh ,
whether youuhre sick or not ,
did youuh qo to school ,
how was school ,
did youuh qet enouqh rest ,
ai'm always thinkinq about all this . hais ,
but have youuh ever thouqht of the same thinq about mi ?
bby , ailoveyouuh . ai cant force myself to forqet youuh .
no matter how hard ai try , ai cant . and ai'll never will .
ailoveyouuh too much already , ai cant force myself to let youuh qo .
this distance is killinq mi , beinq this way with youuh is such a biq sufferinq .
those endless painful nytes and endless tears ,
ai cant qo thru thaat anymore love .
ai dont wana cry anymore . ai cant take it .
ai just wana know whaats wronq with youuh .
hais )':
*kauu perqy tanpa katakata*
ohh love , aimissyouuhh !
ailoveyouuh , ai nyd youuh and ai want only youuh .
trust mi when ai say , ai'll never love anyone else .
theres only youuh in my heart .
bhy , ai sayaanq youuh . ai naak youuh aylek . sumpah ~
ai taak bley qo on with life cam nyhh .
asal youuh uwaat ai cam nyhh ?
whaat have ai done to deserve this from youuh ?
and bhy , remember whaat ai've said before .
mulot manusia jahat siul , they can say whaatever they want .
but whaat they say is not always true .
they can say whaatever they want cause its their mouth .
but do youuh really know whether its the truth or not ??
ishk ,
whaatever it may be , fynd prove first before youuh believe whaat people say kays .
trust mi , ai know . people have been in our way ,
tryinq to make mi lose youh , once youuh did believed whaat thaat someone said about mi .
but ai hope youuh dont fall in thaat same hole , for the second time .
qet the facts ryte , and qet prove first before youuh believe .
mulot manusia memanq cam sial at times , so yeaah .
dont easily believe kays .
ailoveyouuh MyCintaBelo .
and untok hambahamba allah yanq kaat dalam dunia nyhh ,
tolonq eyhh , mynd youuhre own life uhs .
taakyah naak kpo nqaan hidop akuu .
nyhh hidop akuu siul , kornq saper naak hancorkan hidop akuu ?
cumer ornq yanq kaat atas tuhh je yanq bley hancorkan hidop akuu ,
ataw bley uwaat hidop akuu happy . kornq saper siul ?
kornq smue manusia pe , aper yanq akuu makan , kornq pon makan .
so kiter samer lahh kaay .
inqat tawuuk , kornq pey mulot freeflow bubal pasal akuu ,
balasan akuu nanty pon freeflow taw .
so yeaah , nanty taakmu salahkan akuu law hidop kornq susah .
inqat je lahs , the world is round .
aper kornq uwaat , mesty kornq kene aylek .
munqkin memanq akuu taak bley balas sekaranq uhs ,
nary , besok and haryhary yanq akan datanq hary kornq .
hary akuu mesty dataanq . dont worry iye .
sendiri mau inqat uhs , ader peqy mesty ader balek .
kornq uwaat kaat akuu nyhh macam , balasan akuu mesty kornq inqat sampai maty (:
kornq naak tenqok akuu hancor , tapy taak menjady so kornq qo thru ornq yanq akuu sayaanq .
kaay , taak pasal . akuu paham luhh kaay .
akuu tawuuk kornq pey qame , ai understand babe .
its okaay , as ai've said tady .
today , tomorrow and the days to come is youuhre day . but my day will come .
when my day comes , dont blame mi for whaat ai'll do .
for the time beinq , akuu taakkan kesah pasal kornq .
buat aper yanq kornq naak , akuu taak kesah .
akuu tunqqu maser je , kays (:
*winks*
takecare iye kornqs , sayaaanq kornq smue (:
*smiles*
sesiaper yanq teraser , sorry iye .
saper makan chilli , dier tuhh lahh yanq raser pedas ~
saper yanq taak bersalah , taakmu lahh teraser yeaah :D
*qiqqles*
opppps , hehs (:
chalo ~
Labels: mulot bertapis siket lahh kays (:
I cant get enough of your love ♥
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