♥Tuesday, March 23, 2010♥
saw thaat name above , yeaah . ailovehim .
ailovehim , ainydhim and aiwantonlyhim !
listeninq to hati yanq kauu sakiti , by Rossa .
just finished talkinq otp with bbylovee (:
mood ; happy , moody , excited , paranoid ,
everythinq lahs ~
down with hiqh fever , runninq nose and my voice like katak -.-"
nothinq much happened today , its just like any other normal day ai quess .
ai ddnt qo out , ai was at homey the whole day .
cause ai woke up around 5pmplus .
woke up then straiqht away texted bbylovee .
and he ddnt qo school , so did baby .
both of them ddnt qo school today -.-"
idiot kans dornq , pemalas !
hehs ,
taak eyhs , faake .
bby is like so damn fuckinq cutee siaak .
his cute voice , omq ! bley penqsan dohh .
haha !
and yeaah , baru je letak tepon with bby . bby naak tdo .
he's tired , so ya . and maybe he's not qoinq school later on .
ishk , bby . youuh nyhh eyhs . huumpfts !
asek taaknaak qy skola je , cubit youuh can ? (:
*smiles*
currently ai'm down with hiqh fever , and my nose is killinq mi siaa .
just now at about 10pmplus , went over to mami's homey .
*my second family's homey*
who was at mami's homey ,
shashabby , mamat , alonq , sharil , mmy , abq zali , fifin , irfan nqaan haziq .
but haziq , fifin nqaan my setan kecik irfan dahh tdo .
alonq saket siul , dier kene fever .
first , shashabby qot sick , then followed by mi , and now alonq .
soon it'll be mamat ai quess .
smue menjanqkit uhs . haha !
bby's sick too , but he's just too deqil to mamam obat .
ishk , qeramqeram .
then slack with them , ajar mamat maen bar chord .
and mamat ajar mi this rythem , which is sedap naak mampos siul .
hehs ,
it was already about 12amplus , and bby's at homey already .
ai told bby ai was qoinq homey in 5mins time , tapy ai went homey in 15mins time .
*lauqhs*
is bby mad ? errr , entah eyhs . ai dont know .
but bby , ai'm sorry . ddnt mean it at all .
was helpinq mami to cook somethinq , hehs .
then walked homey while textinq bby , and continued textinq bby when ai reached homey .
on lappy , and checked whether baby's online , and nope . she's not .
ai quess she's sleepinq already . hope she's qoinq school later on yeaah .
*smiles*
was just readinq my old posts , and listeninq sonqs .
my fever was qettinq worst , and my nose is like really irritatinq .
hais , couldnt take it much more .
and ai knew , the only thinq thaat could make mi feel better was hearinq bby's voice .
asked bby to call mi , and yeaah . he did .
talked to him , and fuuuuuhhhh . it made mi feel alot better siul .
biaser juqaak . cause of hearinq his voice uhs .
bby taak kasy akuu isap rokok siul , hais .
bley maty akuu , ishk ! bby , haiyo !
youuh isap rokok bley , ai taak bley . not fair siaa youuh bhy .
haha !
nevermynd nevermynd .
sayaanq youuh pey pasaal ai denqar cakaap youuh kays .
hehs ,
darypade bby stop mi from smokinq , for qood .
maty akuu -.-"
so yeaah , wont be smokinq for today ai quess .
bby said ai'm sick , so ai cant smoke .
pujok dier maha pujok , taak bley juqaak . dier tetap taak kasy .
idiot !
babi doqdoq !
*lauqhs*
taakpe lahs , sacrifice dohh (:
qosh , ai wana know his answers siul !
thinkinq about 27march can kill mi siaak .
ai'm dyinq to know . like criously . ishk ,
ai naak tawuuk !
but he's not qona tell mi , no point of mi even askinq aqain .
27march , haiyo , scary saak !
taakpe , ai'll be patient to hear youuhre answers kays bby .
ai just hope youuhre answers wont hurt mi ,
can ai be stronq to hear his answers ?
ai hope so (:
bby , ailoveyouuh lahs . sumpahsumpah !
maybe we're still not like last time yet ,
but ai hope everythinq's qona be fyne between us .
ai dont wana risk losinq youuh aqain .
livinq without youuh , sucks .
life without youuh , feels like ai'm in hell .
one nyte without hearinq youuhre voice , kills mi .
one day livinq without textinq youuh , makes mi qo crazy .
not knowinq of youuhre whereabouts , makes mi worried .
not knowinq whether youuhre safe or not , makes tears fall .
basically , without youuh . ai'm lost .
ai dont know whaat to do , ai dont know whaat to think .
till ai even hurt myself ? ai quess so .
lovinq youuh has been qreaat dear , losinq youuh have been a bad niqhtmare for mi .
if only this is just a dream , ai wish ai would wake up from this niqhtmare .
it hurts so badly beinq this way with youuh love ,
youuhre the only reason why ai'm still standinq here ,
safe from all thaat stuffs which spoiled mi .
since the first time we known each other ,
ai thouqht thaat we're never qoinq anywhere far .
but ai quess ai was wronq .
cause when the time came , we were talkinq everynyte for hours .
and we cant be bothered about the world . its as if the whole world is ours .
people told mi thaat ai've fallen in love with youuh , but ai denied .
ai ddnt want to admit the fact thaat ai've fallen for youuh .
ai thouqht maybe thaat its all just playinq with my mynd .
but ai quess ai was damn wronq .
our second fiqht made mi realise , thaat ai do have feelinqs for youuh .
and it made mi realise thaat ai do love youuh .
cause when we had thaat fiqht , ai was fuckinq scared to lose youuh .
and thaat made mi realise thaat ailoveyouuh boo .
hais )':
ai quess this is just the obstacles thaat ai have to qo thru to be with youuh .
ai've faced all the obstacles , ai went thru all those endless painful nytes without youuh .
and ai've wasted a hell lots of tears for youuh .
sacrifices are made , and ai stayed stronq to wait for youuh .
no matter whaat youuh throw at my way , ai still stayed and continue lovinq youuh .
even when the time youuh told mi , youuh're attached .
and those words from youuh , were the one thaat really made mi drop flat on the qround .
ai was helpless , in everyway .
ai couldnt do anythinq about thaat fact .
all ai could do is just cry ai quess .
but qod did he's will , now somethinq's proven to mi .
ai quess qod's not asleep afterall . he's awake , and he's watchinq every sinqle thinq .
bby , ai harap youuh bley bukak mater youuh .
see for youuhre self on whaats happeninq .
prasaan nyhh , taak senanq sey ai naak buanq .
youuh penah suwo ai luperkan youuh , move on .
tapy satu je ai naak tanyer youuh , sampai sekaranq , ai dahh move on ?
ai dahh luperkan youuh ?
blom , thaats my answer . blom , and ai taak penah pon terfikir naak move on .
love is not a qame siaa youuh . youuh cant say youuh love someone in 5mins ,
and in another 5mins , youuh say youuh dont love thaat someone .
its not easy to forqet about someone we really love .
people say ai'm stupid for lovinq youuh , for every reasons there is .
but all ai said was , its love . love is blind . nothinq counts to mi . .
aqe is totally not a problem for mi . ai dont care about whaat others may say .
ai couldnt care less . its my life .
ai run my life , not them . who are they to talk about mi , or even youuh ?
they have their own lifes , why must they care about myne , and youuhres ?
it has nothinq to do with them .
so ai dont care .
all ai care , is about youuh and my BabyPuteriySweets .
others wana say ai'm stupid for lovinq youuh ,
ai'm stupid if ai would to hate youuh .
no one's perfect , everyone has their bad sides .
but youuhre qood enouqh to my eyes bby .
ai dont care about youuhre past , ai dont care of whaat youuh've done .
all ai care is thaat youuhre faithful , and youuhre honest .
cause ailoveyouuh for who youuh are .
Muhammad Nazrul , ai sayaanq youuh .
27march , hais .
ai'm just hoppinq for the best ,
ailoveyouuh ohh sweet bbyboo .
well , ai think ai posted enouqh for today .
ai nyd some rest . now qona mamam obat then sleep .
bby asked mi to mamam obat and sleep ,
so ai will (:
ai dont know whether bby's qoinq school or not . hmm .
if he dosent , ai hope dier taak merayap . hehs (:
kaay dahh , sayaanq kauu bhy .
chalo ~
I cant get enough of your love ♥
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