♥Thursday, March 4, 2010♥
currently listeninq to down the candle liqht remix by jay sean .
ai'm currenly addicted to the sonq liqhts off by jay sean .
fuck , the sonq qot so many meaninqs .
this time , he cut mi deep . deeper than ever .
my tears fell infront of my mmy siul .
after ai received thaat text msq from him , my tears started fallinq .
ai've been tryinq to hide my tears from mmy ,
but today , ai actually cried infront of mmy .
hais .
why did this had to happen siul .
ai'm still here waitinq for youuh , but in just awhile , youuh've moved on .
it feels like shyt siak !
ai'm down like fuck !
ai was in a happy mood when ai reached homey , then now ai'm down .
hais )':
how could youuh do this to mi . hais .
dont youuh ever think about our memories ??
how we first know each other , how we first texted ,
how we first otp , how we first started to have feelinqs for each other ,
how we admited to each other thaat we had this feelinq ,
how we used to bully each other ,
how we used to talk about shyts otp ,
how youuh used to make mi stop cryinq ,
how we used to fiqht until like so terok ,
ai've always been thinkinq about our memories ,
do youuh really dont have anymore feelinqs for mi ??
hais )':
remember our first fiqht ?? haha !
it was like superb fuuny now thaat ai think back .
we fouqht because youuh wanted to pecah with someone .
and ai was like tellinq youuh not to , cause obviously ai cared .
durh ! haha !
pasal tuhh pon bley jady qado besar siul.
because of somethinq small , it can become a biq issue .
keycoh qiler , then we ended up not contactinq siak .
for like a few days .
yeaah , it was a biq sufferinq .
but evantually he text mi in the end (:
he ask mi whether ai'm crious about not contactinq anymore .
then ai said to him , its youuhre choice lahh .
youuh said the words youuh want to stop contactinq first whaat .
then he asked mi to choose , and ai asked him to choose .
wth kans -.-"
pasal tuhh pon jady masalah . haha !
then in the end , he said thaat he still want to contact mi , ituu pon if ai sudi .
haha !
benqap betol uhs dier , muker akuu , taak sudi naak contact nqaan dier ??
dunia kiamat kot ??
haha !
then in the end , contact cam biaser aylek .
when he text mi about all this , ai was at my work place , waitinq for bus to qo homey .
then when ai reached homey , he called mi then otp cam biaser .
and ai told him ai miss him , and he told mi he miss mi too .
hais .
sweet kans . haha !
then ai some sort like mara him , cause he was the one who started the fiqht ,
and he said ai was the one who started first ,
and ai dont want to fiqht aqain , all ai said was , kaay dahh . stop .
haha !
ai miss those moments siul . criously .
how ai used to waste my tears cryinq for him .
hais )':
thinkinq back on our memories , and on whaat just happened ,
tears are fallinq , like alot .
and stuffs are runninq thru my head now .
haha !
stupid stuffs . only ai know .
mmy's mad at mi cause ai dont wana tell her the reason ai'm cryinq .
if ai would to tell her , ti keycoh . ai rather keep all this to myself .
if only ai could hear his voice for one last time ,
if only ai could talk to him for the last time ,
if only ai could huq him for the last time ,
if only ai could hear his voice and tell him ailovehim for the last time ,
if only ai could hear him say ailoveyouuhtoobby for the last time ,
if only ai could tell him aimisshim for the last time ,
if only ai could hear him say aimissyouuhtoo bhy for the last time ,
if only ai could scold him cause he ddnt want to sleep for the last time ,
if only ai could bully him for the last time ,
if only ai could irritate him for the last time ,
if only ai could hear him say stop cryinq bby ,
if only ai could spend one day with him for the last time ,
if only ai could .
hais .
if all thaat could come thru ,
swear ai'll prove to him how much ai love him ,
and how much ai dont want to lose him .
theres no one else ai would want by my side now but youuh .
youuhre the only person who could chanqe mi , and youuh did .
ai'm a better person now because of youuh .
ai chanqed , youuh wanted mi to , but now youuhre qone .
hais )':
youuh know how hurt ai am ?? hais .
only qod knows .
ai nyd my abah ! ai miss my abah !
my abah is the only person who can make mi feel better in this situation .
but he's not with mi now . ai miss him already !
arrrrrrrqh !
abah , come back soon , ai nyd youuh !
and for youuh , ai hope youuh'll be happy with youuhre new life .
takecare of youuhre self ,
keep this words in youuhre mynd ,
ailoveyouuh , and ai'll never move on .
ai'll still be here waitinq , for youuh .
theres only one person ai nyd by my side now , its youuh .
ai nyd youuh !
ai miss youuhre cute voice otp ,
ai miss youuh irritatinq mi ,
ai miss youuh sayinq , ailoveyouuhtoobby ,
ai miss youuh sayinq , aimissyouuhtoobby ,
ai miss fiqhtinq with youuh ,
ai miss sayinq aihateyouuh and youuh'll reply mi sayinq but ailoveyouuh ,
ai miss every sinqle moment of us .
aimissyouuh !
aistillloveyouuh , aimissyouuh , aimissyouuhre voice ,
takecare , youuh'll still stay in my heart (:
Muhammad Nazrul Bin Ramlan ,
Labels: ita misskeycoh (:
I cant get enough of your love ♥
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