♥Saturday, April 3, 2010♥
listeninq to Oranq Ketiqa by Marslinq boys .
today is such a fucked up day , sumpah !
mixed up emotions , my head is spinninq round ~
basically today just stayed homey the whole day ,
and ai had another biq fiqht with mmy ):
qosh , ai ddnt mean to hurt youuh mmy .
ai just ddnt want to fiqht no more . ai wanted to stop fiqhtinq ,
and ai thouqht that was the best way , yet aqain ai was wronq .
now youuhre really mad at mi , ai'm sorry mmy .
ai really am , ai ddnt mean it . ai'm sorry and ailoveyouuh !
dah , dont wana elaborate more .
ai was beinq an asshole towards mmy , hais .
ai dont even know whats wronq with mi today . all ai could do was ,
pickinq up fiqhts with mmy for stupid reasons .
somehow ai felt like superbly moody today , for what reason . ai'm not sure .
now mi and mmy are not in talkinq terms , if only abah was here ):
he would settle all this between mi and mmy . *sobs*
because ai was thinkinq of someone , ai'm in this condition with mmy now .
arrrrqhhhh ! ai hate myself . ai'm thinkinq of him too much !
ai should really try to control myself , ai hate beinq in this state with mmy .
she's next to mi now , sleepinq soundly . but ai cant huq her .
ai'm an asshole for hurtinq mmy's feelinqs , ai know ai am .
trust mi , ai really am fuckinq sorry . ai ddnt meant to .
ai walked away , for a reason mmy . ai wanted to prevent more fiqhts .
but it ended up like this , mmy .
abah , ai wish youuhre here to settle this for mi .
mmy wont cool down , even if ai would to say sorry to her .
abah , come back soon please !
aimissyouuh , and ai nyd youuh badly .
thinqs are qoinq haywire here , everythinq .
all of us nyd youuh back here to take control of everythinq .
havinq to qo thru this sufferinq nytes without abah beside mi , sucks !
it has been a miserable 1month so far .
come back soon please abah , thinqs are qettinq worst .
can ai really fall in love aqain ? does the word "LOVE" even exsist anymore ?
ai dout so , cause ai'm tired of lovinq . tired of beinq in love .
the meaninq of "love hurts" is damn true .
cause love does hurt . love is not just a word to be said ,
its not a qame , love is not for sex .
love is the matter of the heart , its easy to be said .
but hard to be shown , if youuh dont know whats the meaninq of "LOVE"
dont use that word , cause its not just a word .
its full of sacrifices and tears .
endless pains .
thats what ai call it . now , ai'm preventinq myself from fallinq in love aqain .
cause someone is stealinq my heart , and ai dont know what ai should do .
should ai just forqet about "him" and move on ?
should ai let that someone in ?
should ai qive that someone a chance ?
or should ai just stay this way , keep my feelinqs for "him"
cause ai dont want to forqet about "him"
but since this dosent seems to be qoinq anywhere at all ,
he's not cominq back , he's qone for qood .
if he can move on , why cant ai . ryte ?
hais .
ai dont know what ai should do ,
otak aku bley pecah siak law asek-asek fikir pasal niy bende je .
and sumpah wire aku dah lary siul , pukimak tol .
ishk , sot sak aku .
danny still have the quts to teqor mi pat msn , pathetic kan ?
dier kater aku sombonq , like wtf siak .
ita ; aper yanq sombonq ?
danny ; bey ornq teqor dier , dier tak reply ataw law jawab pon stakat nak aper ?
mak ai , bodow pe siak . qeram siul aku . sumpah !
and danny , niy untuk kau ehh .
inqat siket , pmpn kau tuh tak suker kau contact nqan aku .
so kau takyah nak teqor-teqor aku pat msn , and cakap aku sombonq . qet it ?!
paham tak ? takkan niy pon kau tak paham kan .
ader otak tuh , py pakai . otak maty sak !
kau cakap pat aku yanq kau tak tawu yanq pmpn kau tak puas haty nqan aku ,
kau cakap kau tak tawu yanq pmpn kau nak caryk kau .
siul ahh , kau fikir aku budak-budak pe siul .
aku tak bodow ehh , kau nak penq pon . aqak-aqak uhs sial .
siket hary ifah cakap pat aku , KAU yanq bilanq dier pasal niy hal siul .
cam ane ehh tuh kau bley bilanq dier pasal niy bende , tapy kau cakap kau tak tawu paper .
*wonderinq*
kiwak , nampak sah kau penq kan . aku tak bodow siul .
takmu treat aku cam budak-budak uhh bro . favour ehh . praqai kau , stopit ahh !
kau dah ader pmpn , dudok diam-diam nqan kau peh pmpn sua luh .
takyah kacau hidop aku laqy . apersal kau masey nak sebok-sebok teqor aku ?!
aku dah penah cakap pat kau , aku malas nak ader hal laqy .
aku dah cakap pe , aku taknak ader hal nqan pmpn kau .
time lambat doh !
bukak mater kau tuh , and py cuci kau peh otak .
aku raser kau peh otak dah karat uhh sial !
kau cakap niy smue bukan salah kau , law kau stop contact aku , niy bende takkan jady siul .
yanq kau tuh qatal sanqat apersal ?!
tak cukop satu nonok pe sial !?
siak uhs , kau fikir aku aper sak ?!
ehh , aku takde maser ehh nak pecah pasal konek . kau paham .
aper laqy jantan cam kau , siul . waste aku peh time je sak .
muker jatoh sial law aku pecah pasal jantal sundal cam kau .
bukan aku nak pandanq umur ke aper uhs , tapy ehh please ahh .
pmpn kau nqan aku , umur jaoh beza siak . biar kornq uwat hal kornq ,
aku uwat hal aku sendiri uhh .
kornq tak kacau aku , aku pon takkan penah kacau kornq .
kau stress pasal niy hal , tuh kau peh pasal ahh sial !
takde kene menqene nqan aku pe , yanq kau nak bilanq aku kau stress untuk aper ?!
motive kau aper siul !? nak uwat aku kcian pat kau ?!
takde maser sia aku nak layan jantan cam kau , irrits siak !
kau py jaqer pmpn tuh sudah , takyah nak jaqer tepi kain aku .
and cakap nqan pmpn kau , time lambat nak pecah pasal konek .
tapy law betol dier nak aku , aku sembaranq .
aku sentiaser pat siniy . dier nak aku ? meh siniy meh (:
tapy satu je uhh , takmu malu law dier kalah point kay .
muker takmu paisehh sudah . nak caryk aku , tapy dier tak tawu citer aqy .
qet her facts ryte first kay *winks*
andand , law pmpn kau sentoh aku , cakap nqan dier . takmu menyesal sua luh ehh .
*smiles*
takecare uhh kornq ! *winks*
okay dah , malas nak bubal pasal niy hal kunek . takde maser siul aku .
haha !
later on at about 10am qoinq to myt AdekRaikhan !
hehs ,
excited sampai tak bley tdo siul aku .
haha !
okay lah tuh , CintaBaby's asleep already and ai'll wake her up later on (:
hmm ,
ai qot nothinq to post about siak , cause nothinq much happened .
ai was at homey all the way , what youuh expect -.-
and ai'm missinq someone all a sudden , not "him" ehh .
someone else , but ofcos ya lah . ai do miss "him" also .
for those who knows , diam-diam sudah .
for those for dont know who ai'm talkinq about , dont bother askinq mi .
ai wont sebot "his" name .
ai dont want to , if ai would . hais . ai think ai'll drop dead siak .
haha !
ishk , terok pe . sampai drop dead . *smiles*
tak lah sampai terok qytuh , *lauqhs*
aku fake-inq aje :D
kay lah , ita nak py rest mater jap .
mater dah start nantok siul , haha !
ddnt really sleep last nyte . so ya , ai'm still tired . ddnt catch up with my beauty sleep yet -.-
but will soon uhs , tonyte maybe ? (:
cause sunday , no plans yet . ai think so , so ya . dah , bye .
takecare smuer !
nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeett ^.^
arrrrqhhhh ! ai hate myself . ai'm thinkinq of him too much !
ai should really try to control myself , ai hate beinq in this state with mmy .
she's next to mi now , sleepinq soundly . but ai cant huq her .
ai'm an asshole for hurtinq mmy's feelinqs , ai know ai am .
trust mi , ai really am fuckinq sorry . ai ddnt meant to .
ai walked away , for a reason mmy . ai wanted to prevent more fiqhts .
but it ended up like this , mmy .
abah , ai wish youuhre here to settle this for mi .
mmy wont cool down , even if ai would to say sorry to her .
abah , come back soon please !
aimissyouuh , and ai nyd youuh badly .
thinqs are qoinq haywire here , everythinq .
all of us nyd youuh back here to take control of everythinq .
havinq to qo thru this sufferinq nytes without abah beside mi , sucks !
it has been a miserable 1month so far .
come back soon please abah , thinqs are qettinq worst .
can ai really fall in love aqain ? does the word "LOVE" even exsist anymore ?
ai dout so , cause ai'm tired of lovinq . tired of beinq in love .
the meaninq of "love hurts" is damn true .
cause love does hurt . love is not just a word to be said ,
its not a qame , love is not for sex .
love is the matter of the heart , its easy to be said .
but hard to be shown , if youuh dont know whats the meaninq of "LOVE"
dont use that word , cause its not just a word .
its full of sacrifices and tears .
endless pains .
thats what ai call it . now , ai'm preventinq myself from fallinq in love aqain .
cause someone is stealinq my heart , and ai dont know what ai should do .
should ai just forqet about "him" and move on ?
should ai let that someone in ?
should ai qive that someone a chance ?
or should ai just stay this way , keep my feelinqs for "him"
cause ai dont want to forqet about "him"
but since this dosent seems to be qoinq anywhere at all ,
he's not cominq back , he's qone for qood .
if he can move on , why cant ai . ryte ?
hais .
ai dont know what ai should do ,
otak aku bley pecah siak law asek-asek fikir pasal niy bende je .
and sumpah wire aku dah lary siul , pukimak tol .
ishk , sot sak aku .
danny still have the quts to teqor mi pat msn , pathetic kan ?
dier kater aku sombonq , like wtf siak .
ita ; aper yanq sombonq ?
danny ; bey ornq teqor dier , dier tak reply ataw law jawab pon stakat nak aper ?
mak ai , bodow pe siak . qeram siul aku . sumpah !
and danny , niy untuk kau ehh .
inqat siket , pmpn kau tuh tak suker kau contact nqan aku .
so kau takyah nak teqor-teqor aku pat msn , and cakap aku sombonq . qet it ?!
paham tak ? takkan niy pon kau tak paham kan .
ader otak tuh , py pakai . otak maty sak !
kau cakap pat aku yanq kau tak tawu yanq pmpn kau tak puas haty nqan aku ,
kau cakap kau tak tawu yanq pmpn kau nak caryk kau .
siul ahh , kau fikir aku budak-budak pe siul .
aku tak bodow ehh , kau nak penq pon . aqak-aqak uhs sial .
siket hary ifah cakap pat aku , KAU yanq bilanq dier pasal niy hal siul .
cam ane ehh tuh kau bley bilanq dier pasal niy bende , tapy kau cakap kau tak tawu paper .
*wonderinq*
kiwak , nampak sah kau penq kan . aku tak bodow siul .
takmu treat aku cam budak-budak uhh bro . favour ehh . praqai kau , stopit ahh !
kau dah ader pmpn , dudok diam-diam nqan kau peh pmpn sua luh .
takyah kacau hidop aku laqy . apersal kau masey nak sebok-sebok teqor aku ?!
aku dah penah cakap pat kau , aku malas nak ader hal laqy .
aku dah cakap pe , aku taknak ader hal nqan pmpn kau .
time lambat doh !
bukak mater kau tuh , and py cuci kau peh otak .
aku raser kau peh otak dah karat uhh sial !
kau cakap niy smue bukan salah kau , law kau stop contact aku , niy bende takkan jady siul .
yanq kau tuh qatal sanqat apersal ?!
tak cukop satu nonok pe sial !?
siak uhs , kau fikir aku aper sak ?!
ehh , aku takde maser ehh nak pecah pasal konek . kau paham .
aper laqy jantan cam kau , siul . waste aku peh time je sak .
muker jatoh sial law aku pecah pasal jantal sundal cam kau .
bukan aku nak pandanq umur ke aper uhs , tapy ehh please ahh .
pmpn kau nqan aku , umur jaoh beza siak . biar kornq uwat hal kornq ,
aku uwat hal aku sendiri uhh .
kornq tak kacau aku , aku pon takkan penah kacau kornq .
kau stress pasal niy hal , tuh kau peh pasal ahh sial !
takde kene menqene nqan aku pe , yanq kau nak bilanq aku kau stress untuk aper ?!
motive kau aper siul !? nak uwat aku kcian pat kau ?!
takde maser sia aku nak layan jantan cam kau , irrits siak !
kau py jaqer pmpn tuh sudah , takyah nak jaqer tepi kain aku .
and cakap nqan pmpn kau , time lambat nak pecah pasal konek .
tapy law betol dier nak aku , aku sembaranq .
aku sentiaser pat siniy . dier nak aku ? meh siniy meh (:
tapy satu je uhh , takmu malu law dier kalah point kay .
muker takmu paisehh sudah . nak caryk aku , tapy dier tak tawu citer aqy .
qet her facts ryte first kay *winks*
andand , law pmpn kau sentoh aku , cakap nqan dier . takmu menyesal sua luh ehh .
*smiles*
takecare uhh kornq ! *winks*
okay dah , malas nak bubal pasal niy hal kunek . takde maser siul aku .
haha !
later on at about 10am qoinq to myt AdekRaikhan !
hehs ,
excited sampai tak bley tdo siul aku .
haha !
okay lah tuh , CintaBaby's asleep already and ai'll wake her up later on (:
hmm ,
ai qot nothinq to post about siak , cause nothinq much happened .
ai was at homey all the way , what youuh expect -.-
and ai'm missinq someone all a sudden , not "him" ehh .
someone else , but ofcos ya lah . ai do miss "him" also .
for those who knows , diam-diam sudah .
for those for dont know who ai'm talkinq about , dont bother askinq mi .
ai wont sebot "his" name .
ai dont want to , if ai would . hais . ai think ai'll drop dead siak .
haha !
ishk , terok pe . sampai drop dead . *smiles*
tak lah sampai terok qytuh , *lauqhs*
aku fake-inq aje :D
kay lah , ita nak py rest mater jap .
mater dah start nantok siul , haha !
ddnt really sleep last nyte . so ya , ai'm still tired . ddnt catch up with my beauty sleep yet -.-
but will soon uhs , tonyte maybe ? (:
cause sunday , no plans yet . ai think so , so ya . dah , bye .
takecare smuer !
nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeett ^.^
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