♥Tuesday, April 13, 2010♥
listeninq to Asyura by Shahrin .
is this the feelinq of missinq him ??
ai cant put myself to sleep , my eyes benqkak .
saket like fuck -.-
ai cant put myself to sleep , my eyes are hurtinq badly .
this is my second post siul for today . cause ai'm bored .
*kenaper lah ini harus terjady kaseh*
hais ,
yknow what day isit today ? its 13thApril .
the date 13th means alot to mi , and finally the date arrived .
but its such a sufferinq havinq to qo thru today without mytinq him .
13Feb ai qot to myt him , 13March also . but today , ai quess not .
what a life lah kan , what to do ? hmm ,
inikah cobaan yanq harus ku tempuh ?
it seems so easy to qo thru this , but qoinq thru it myself is damn fuckinq hard .
this is just a random post , this whole post is qoinq to be about him .
sorry for talkinq about him kay , not interested to read , dont kay .
basically , after my last post . ai've just been lyinq down on my bed with my lappy infront of mi .
but ai ddnt even touch my lappy , ai was online but ai ddnt chat with anyone .
all ai did was ,
listen to sonqs , played quitar , sinqsinqsinq , barenq-barenq , read throuqh his old msqs , lookinq at that teeshirt ,
lookinq at that watch , lookinq at his pictures , and cry -.-
ai cried the whole nyte siul , since the moment he texted mi at second family homey air mater dah bertakonq .
tapy ku tahan je siul . ai ddnt want to cry infront of mamat .
until the time ai reached homey , then my tears rolled down my cheeks .
hais )':
and ai've been cryinq since ai reached homey . and now my eyes hurts -.-
ai cant qo thru today without tears , ai'm feelinq this way but him ?
entah lah kan , and he ddnt qo school ):
how ai know ? he texted mi this morninq at 647am .
by that timinq ai already stopped cryinq , when ai qot that text . waaduhh , tears rolled down aqain .
ai was disappointed that he ddnt qo school , hais ):
but what can ai do ? nothinq , ai'm helpless . ai cant do a fuckinq thinq about it .
he was online , but now dah tak . dah offline ):
ddnt teqor at all , both ddnt teqor each other . hais ,
nevermynd lahs , maybe this is just what ai have to qo thru .
ai wish youuh all the best in life ahead kay , do whats best for youuh .
youuh said that school is not the best for youuh , hais .
please , do it as a favour for mi . qo to school .
and please , ohh please dont do any stupid stuffs .
for youuhre own sake , dont do anythinq stupid . please .
my only request , is for youuh to qo school and do well for youuhre Nlevels ,
dont do anythinq stupid , take qood care of youuhre self and lead a happy life .
ai want the best for youuh . cause ai care .
eventhouqh ai cant see what youuhre doinq , whether youuhre doinq the ryte thinqs or not .
but youuh will know what youuhre doinq , ai'm sure youuhre biq enouqh to think for youuhre self .
whats qood and whats bad , youuh chanqed mi when ai was at my worst .
ai'm sure youuh can also make youuhre choices wisely .
ai dont want anythinq bad to happen to youuh . dont qet into troble kay .
we're like this now , ai know . who am ai to say all this stuffs .
askinq youuh to do all this , but as someone who youuh ever contacted .
and youuh so called sayanq before , do this as a favour for mi .
just think of it that way kay , cause just lettinq youuh know . ai care about youuh .
youuh told mi that ai dont have to keep all my promises to youuh anymore .
wana know why ai still want to keep my promises to youuh ?
cause ai'm the type of person , when ai say ai'll do it . means ai'll do it .
ai keep my words , ai dont like breakinq promises .
ai meant every word that ai've said to youuh before .
ai've loved youuh and only youuh . no one else .
and till now , only youuh stay in my heart .
no quy can ever replace youuh . youuhre a qreat person .
a wonderful and sweet quy . such a carinq quy .
youuhre different from other quys out there , and ai'll never fynd anyone else like youuh .
the stuffs that youuh've done makes it hard for mi to forqet about youuh .
how youuh used to care about mi , how youuh used to scold mi .
how we used to fyte . youuhre sweetness , youuhre deqil-ness , youuhre cute-ness ,
youuh attitude , youuhre words , youuhre voice , youuhre smell , youuhre touch and youuhre kisses .
no one can ever replace youuh . sumpah .
youuh're someone special to mi , ai'll never forqet about youuh .
youuh may say that ai'm leadinq a happy life now , but do youuh really know what ai'm feelinq everyday ?
what ai'm thinkinq of everyday ? how ai wonder where youuh are ?
how ai wonder have youuh eaten or not ? have youuh reached home safely ?
how was school ? how was youuhre takraw traininq ? did youuh qet injured ? are youuh okay ?
all this keeps runninq thru my mynd every sinqle day .
ai never fail to think about youuh , ai may have a smile on my face .
ai may be lauqhinq , but only qod really knows how hurt ai am inside .
ai'm hidinq everythinq from everyone , no one knows how ai feel .
ai put on a fake smile , fake lauqhters , fake jokes .
everythinq's fake , not real ones .
the only thinq which is real , are my tears that fall everynyte without fail .
when youuh come across my mynd , tears will fall .
thinkinq of our memories , kills mi .
how youuh took care of mi when ai was down with fever ,
how youuh scolded mi for the stupid stuffs ai did ,
how youuh bully-ed mi ,
how youuh looked at mi all the way while forcinq mi to sleep ,
how youuh kissed mi ,
how youuhre touch feels ,
youuhre body smell ,
youuhre cute voice ,
how youuh looked mi in the eye ,
how youuh used to text mi every moment ,
how we used to talk for hours otp ,
how youuh irritate mi ,
how youuh said "ailoveyouuhtoo"
how youuh said "aimissyouuhtoo"
how youuh said "mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs"
how youuh said "wahh , laju pe anqkat call ai ?"
what we used to talk about otp ,
how youuh used to say "b , ai'm busy . ty ai dah free ai text youuh aylek kay . loveyouuh , mwaaaahs"
hais , all this kills mi sia . its too much to let qo )':
ai quess people chanqe ryte , so yeaah . ai cant do anythinq about this now .
ai just have to accept everythinq , ai've always been patient with youuh .
and ai'm still qona be patient with youuh .
ai hope one day youuh'll realise how much pain youuh put mi thru all this time ,
ai hope youuh'll realise what youuh've done . if only youuh could see how much tears ai've wasted for youuh .
AIMISSYOUUH !
this feelinq sucks , really cause ai'm missinq youuh damn fuckinq much ryte now .
my tears are fallinq without stoppinq , ohh qod . please help mi thru this .
ai cant take this much more !
ai dont know whats happeninq , hais )':
if only youuh knew how much ai had to tahan with all this , how patient ai was to face all this .
ai cant pretend that ai'm fyne anymore . cause ai'm not .
AIMISSYOUUH ,
he's online aqain , hais )':
which makes it even harder to pretend that ai'm okay .
ai'm all alone at home , everyone's out to work .
my mynd is runninq wild , hais .
ai dont know what ai'm thinkinq of ryte now , ai'm thinkinq of all kinds of thinqs .
tolonq aku someone ! please please !
ai wana stop cryinq , but ai cant . my eyes hurt damn fuckinq much , but tears just keep on fallinq !
saket sial mater aku ! hais )':
kay dah , ai wana cry my heart out .
sorry for talkinq about him at this post kay ,
not interested to read , dont kay (:
thanks , and sorry .
takecare , bye .
ai still loveyouuh bby )':
ai cant put myself to sleep , my eyes are hurtinq badly .
this is my second post siul for today . cause ai'm bored .
*kenaper lah ini harus terjady kaseh*
hais ,
yknow what day isit today ? its 13thApril .
the date 13th means alot to mi , and finally the date arrived .
but its such a sufferinq havinq to qo thru today without mytinq him .
13Feb ai qot to myt him , 13March also . but today , ai quess not .
what a life lah kan , what to do ? hmm ,
inikah cobaan yanq harus ku tempuh ?
it seems so easy to qo thru this , but qoinq thru it myself is damn fuckinq hard .
this is just a random post , this whole post is qoinq to be about him .
sorry for talkinq about him kay , not interested to read , dont kay .
basically , after my last post . ai've just been lyinq down on my bed with my lappy infront of mi .
but ai ddnt even touch my lappy , ai was online but ai ddnt chat with anyone .
all ai did was ,
listen to sonqs , played quitar , sinqsinqsinq , barenq-barenq , read throuqh his old msqs , lookinq at that teeshirt ,
lookinq at that watch , lookinq at his pictures , and cry -.-
ai cried the whole nyte siul , since the moment he texted mi at second family homey air mater dah bertakonq .
tapy ku tahan je siul . ai ddnt want to cry infront of mamat .
until the time ai reached homey , then my tears rolled down my cheeks .
hais )':
and ai've been cryinq since ai reached homey . and now my eyes hurts -.-
ai cant qo thru today without tears , ai'm feelinq this way but him ?
entah lah kan , and he ddnt qo school ):
how ai know ? he texted mi this morninq at 647am .
by that timinq ai already stopped cryinq , when ai qot that text . waaduhh , tears rolled down aqain .
ai was disappointed that he ddnt qo school , hais ):
but what can ai do ? nothinq , ai'm helpless . ai cant do a fuckinq thinq about it .
he was online , but now dah tak . dah offline ):
ddnt teqor at all , both ddnt teqor each other . hais ,
nevermynd lahs , maybe this is just what ai have to qo thru .
ai wish youuh all the best in life ahead kay , do whats best for youuh .
youuh said that school is not the best for youuh , hais .
please , do it as a favour for mi . qo to school .
and please , ohh please dont do any stupid stuffs .
for youuhre own sake , dont do anythinq stupid . please .
my only request , is for youuh to qo school and do well for youuhre Nlevels ,
dont do anythinq stupid , take qood care of youuhre self and lead a happy life .
ai want the best for youuh . cause ai care .
eventhouqh ai cant see what youuhre doinq , whether youuhre doinq the ryte thinqs or not .
but youuh will know what youuhre doinq , ai'm sure youuhre biq enouqh to think for youuhre self .
whats qood and whats bad , youuh chanqed mi when ai was at my worst .
ai'm sure youuh can also make youuhre choices wisely .
ai dont want anythinq bad to happen to youuh . dont qet into troble kay .
we're like this now , ai know . who am ai to say all this stuffs .
askinq youuh to do all this , but as someone who youuh ever contacted .
and youuh so called sayanq before , do this as a favour for mi .
just think of it that way kay , cause just lettinq youuh know . ai care about youuh .
youuh told mi that ai dont have to keep all my promises to youuh anymore .
wana know why ai still want to keep my promises to youuh ?
cause ai'm the type of person , when ai say ai'll do it . means ai'll do it .
ai keep my words , ai dont like breakinq promises .
ai meant every word that ai've said to youuh before .
ai've loved youuh and only youuh . no one else .
and till now , only youuh stay in my heart .
no quy can ever replace youuh . youuhre a qreat person .
a wonderful and sweet quy . such a carinq quy .
youuhre different from other quys out there , and ai'll never fynd anyone else like youuh .
the stuffs that youuh've done makes it hard for mi to forqet about youuh .
how youuh used to care about mi , how youuh used to scold mi .
how we used to fyte . youuhre sweetness , youuhre deqil-ness , youuhre cute-ness ,
youuh attitude , youuhre words , youuhre voice , youuhre smell , youuhre touch and youuhre kisses .
no one can ever replace youuh . sumpah .
youuh're someone special to mi , ai'll never forqet about youuh .
youuh may say that ai'm leadinq a happy life now , but do youuh really know what ai'm feelinq everyday ?
what ai'm thinkinq of everyday ? how ai wonder where youuh are ?
how ai wonder have youuh eaten or not ? have youuh reached home safely ?
how was school ? how was youuhre takraw traininq ? did youuh qet injured ? are youuh okay ?
all this keeps runninq thru my mynd every sinqle day .
ai never fail to think about youuh , ai may have a smile on my face .
ai may be lauqhinq , but only qod really knows how hurt ai am inside .
ai'm hidinq everythinq from everyone , no one knows how ai feel .
ai put on a fake smile , fake lauqhters , fake jokes .
everythinq's fake , not real ones .
the only thinq which is real , are my tears that fall everynyte without fail .
when youuh come across my mynd , tears will fall .
thinkinq of our memories , kills mi .
how youuh took care of mi when ai was down with fever ,
how youuh scolded mi for the stupid stuffs ai did ,
how youuh bully-ed mi ,
how youuh looked at mi all the way while forcinq mi to sleep ,
how youuh kissed mi ,
how youuhre touch feels ,
youuhre body smell ,
youuhre cute voice ,
how youuh looked mi in the eye ,
how youuh used to text mi every moment ,
how we used to talk for hours otp ,
how youuh irritate mi ,
how youuh said "ailoveyouuhtoo"
how youuh said "aimissyouuhtoo"
how youuh said "mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs"
how youuh said "wahh , laju pe anqkat call ai ?"
what we used to talk about otp ,
how youuh used to say "b , ai'm busy . ty ai dah free ai text youuh aylek kay . loveyouuh , mwaaaahs"
hais , all this kills mi sia . its too much to let qo )':
ai quess people chanqe ryte , so yeaah . ai cant do anythinq about this now .
ai just have to accept everythinq , ai've always been patient with youuh .
and ai'm still qona be patient with youuh .
ai hope one day youuh'll realise how much pain youuh put mi thru all this time ,
ai hope youuh'll realise what youuh've done . if only youuh could see how much tears ai've wasted for youuh .
AIMISSYOUUH !
this feelinq sucks , really cause ai'm missinq youuh damn fuckinq much ryte now .
my tears are fallinq without stoppinq , ohh qod . please help mi thru this .
ai cant take this much more !
ai dont know whats happeninq , hais )':
if only youuh knew how much ai had to tahan with all this , how patient ai was to face all this .
ai cant pretend that ai'm fyne anymore . cause ai'm not .
AIMISSYOUUH ,
he's online aqain , hais )':
which makes it even harder to pretend that ai'm okay .
ai'm all alone at home , everyone's out to work .
my mynd is runninq wild , hais .
ai dont know what ai'm thinkinq of ryte now , ai'm thinkinq of all kinds of thinqs .
tolonq aku someone ! please please !
ai wana stop cryinq , but ai cant . my eyes hurt damn fuckinq much , but tears just keep on fallinq !
saket sial mater aku ! hais )':
kay dah , ai wana cry my heart out .
sorry for talkinq about him at this post kay ,
not interested to read , dont kay (:
thanks , and sorry .
takecare , bye .
ai still loveyouuh bby )':
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