♥Monday, October 11, 2010♥
it hurts alot , the truth really hurts)':
hais , it cut me deep . *crying*
i ddnt expected him to be this kind of guy , i thought he was different .
he WAS , but that was just for a moment i guess .
i dont know what else to think or do right now , im stunt .
was it her to be blamed for what happened ? YES !
it is about her , it has always been about HER !
fvck siak , the feeling is like really fvcked up .
since the very start , she was always the problem .
why must she enter our lovelife ?!!!!!!
cant she just bloody move on !!!!?
sengkit konek kaper siak ! PUKIMAK uhs !
kau dah buang dia , gy ngan jantan laen .
bey sekarang dia dah ngan aku , kau nak masuk balek dalam hidup dia and hancurkan apa yang kita ada ?!
pragai STOPIT OKAAY !
niy lah reason aku benci kau from the start !
i fvcking blame you for everything that happened ! BITCH !
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhh !
sot siak otak ita ! otak lary sia !
kau dah maen'maen kan dia dulu , curang ngan jantan laen . bey dia dah tinggalkan kau ,
sekarang dia dah ngan aku , after 3 BLOODY FVCKING YEARS YOU BLOODY FVCKING COME BACK !!!!!?
what are you trying to do !?
after 3 years kau dah tak ngan dia lagy , sekarang kau datang balek .
dengan senang nyer kau nak masuk balek dalam hidup dia ?!!
ehs , stopit pleaseee !
takmu uhs sampai aku penah skaly pun nampak muker kau kay , pleaseee.
fvcking pissed off siak , you cheated him , and now you come back and ruin everything .
thankyou RINA !
i've sacrificed alot for my relationship with him to go on smoothly , but now everything's gone .
and its because of you , thankyou .
i blame both for what happened , but i blame you more .
because of what you did to him in the past , he's like this now .
heart as hard as a stone , because of YOU , he hurt ME !
its not fair to me sia , i have feelings too seh .
why does people always tell me to just forget about it , its not that easy !
it hurts alot sia , im trying my fvcking best to be strong cause of my bestfriend .
he's my one and only strength right now , he's the one who's helping me go thru these days without 'him'
i try to hide my tears cause i know my bestfriend dont want to see my tears .
but the more i try to keep my tears and act like im doing just fine ,
tends to hurt me even more . hais , im trying my best .
i am , i swear . but is my efforts enough ? i dout .
bestfriend , i need you now )':
*looks down*
i hope that one day , insert name will open his eyes and realize what he's done .
and hopefully one day he'll regret for doing what he did .
hais ,
for now , ita ikhlas lepaskan insert name , i'll continue to live life the way it is ,
with my bestfriend around me , i'll be fine .
i blame both for what happened , but i blame you more .
because of what you did to him in the past , he's like this now .
heart as hard as a stone , because of YOU , he hurt ME !
its not fair to me sia , i have feelings too seh .
why does people always tell me to just forget about it , its not that easy !
it hurts alot sia , im trying my fvcking best to be strong cause of my bestfriend .
he's my one and only strength right now , he's the one who's helping me go thru these days without 'him'
i try to hide my tears cause i know my bestfriend dont want to see my tears .
but the more i try to keep my tears and act like im doing just fine ,
tends to hurt me even more . hais , im trying my best .
i am , i swear . but is my efforts enough ? i dout .
bestfriend , i need you now )':
*looks down*
i hope that one day , insert name will open his eyes and realize what he's done .
and hopefully one day he'll regret for doing what he did .
hais ,
for now , ita ikhlas lepaskan insert name , i'll continue to live life the way it is ,
with my bestfriend around me , i'll be fine .
I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 4:52 PM
@ 4:52 PM
♥Sunday, October 10, 2010♥
chaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak ~
*giggles*
post ; 7 oct 2010 & 8 oct 2010 ^.^
im back to single , and i think i wrote that in my previous post .
*looks down*
im like really shocked cause of what i experienced on that day kat rumah biol .
it was really unexpected uhs , pelik tapy benar .
haha !
actually hary tuh , ita taknak go rumah biol . cause ita tau yang exboyfriend will be there .
ita dah agak , mesty ada gado . and ita nak avoid that fight uhs .
tapy ita pandang bestfriend and jugak biol , cause kita smua nak celebrate birthday biol .
so ita had to go uhs , i was taking a risk by going . but it was for biol and bestfriend .
firstly , went vivo to meet bestfriend . dia nak beli baju , so i teman him (:
went topman to caryk baju yang dia nak , sumpah seh , that day ita go ita nampak baju yang dia nak .
tapy bila gy , baju yang i nampak tuh takda . bey bestfriend cakap ita tipu dia ):
sedeh kan ! haha !
then kita go makan , kat longjohn ;DD
after makan , go smoky'smoky ngan bestfriend .
walked around vivo with bestfriend , then next went to cotton on (:
i pileh kan bestfriend baju oiy ! hehs (:
lawa seh baju tuh yang i pileh kan , sumpah ^.^
baju kemeja satu and satu t'shirt , bey lagy satu bestfriend pileh sendiri :DD
after cotton on , went to kedai 'Diva' i nak tengok'tengok aje . i nak beli bende , tapy takda cent ):
*sobs*
haha !
me and bestfriend jalan'jalan kat dalam kedai 'Diva' tuh for like 30mins seh .
padehal kedai tuh kecik nak mampus , haha !
klakar seh , cause orng kedai tuh satu is mlayu .
bey i tengok'tengok barang , bey i dah ajak bestfriend kluar kedai tuh .
cause dah takda bende nak tengok , then no cent nak buy , tengok pun macam saket haty gitu .
bestfriend maty'maty suruh i pileh bende , dia nak belikan i barang =.=
bey ita cakap , ita tak tau , ita suruh dia pileh cause dia yang nak belikan .
dia taknak , maty'maty nak ita pileh . kita gado kat dalam kedai tuh stakat pasal saper nak pileh =.=
wth , haha !
i nak beli bende yang can remind me of bestfriend , cause itu dia belikan seh .
and it means alot to me , cause exboyfriend sendiri tak penah belikan i barang .
bey ita ternampak satu rantai niy , its like kita bley letak word ke namer apa'apa yang kita nak .
cause they provide the letters , from a to z .
so i thought , i nak beli tuh and letak namer bestfriend (:
sweet kan ita ? tau ! takyah nak cakap ! hahaha !
*prasaan kjap*
heh ,
bestfriend belikan i then orng kedai tuh ada cakap bende .
tapy i tak bley ingat the words she said , ita cumer bley ingat dia cakap .
'bestfriend bley jady lebeh peh .'
i ngan bestfriend dah ketawer'ketawer sia .
wth siak =.=
then me and bestfriend bus'ed to amk , nak go capai minum then go rumah biol .
skip okaay ?
dah sampai rumah biol , lepak . then man pun balek dary keje .
irritating seh man , tapy cute !
haha !
ita suka tengok man bila nga stress , cute gila ! nyahahahaha ~
ada lah story nyer , taknak share . personal (:
then man tanyer ita , dah break ngan insert name ehs ?
ita jawab lah , cakap iye . man like mangkok rabak gitu seh ngan insert name .
ita pun dont know why , man tanyer kenaper bley break ?
ita cakap ngan man yang insert name cakap dia dah macam takda haty kat ita .
man ; senang'senang peh dia cakap gitu ? dah takda haty , huumfpts .
aku try siket tumbuk muka dia , tengok dia raser ke tak , kata dia dah takda haty peh !'
man macam mengamok seh , ita pun tak tau asal . ita shocked seh .
cause ita pun bukan nyer serapat maner seh ngan man and dorng smua .
hmmms ,
skip !
insert name pun sampai , me and bestfriend ambek dia kat bawa , dia suruh =.=
bey dorng smua cakap , dia tak bley naek sendiri peh . dah macam first time datang rumah biol gitu .
haha !
dah ambek dia , naek atas then lepak .
skip !
dah start minum , bey dia ada terlepas cakap bende uhs pat kita smua .
bestfriend , you should know . *looks down*
smua dah start senget siket then dia nak go toilet . lepas tuh sam pun kluar bilik .
then man pun kluar bilik .
dorng macam tak datang'datang balek gitu =.=
aziz kluar py toilet , dia masuk balek then dia cakap yang sam ngan man nga bubal ngan dia pasal ita .
ita blurr lah , cause ita tak suruh seh , and ita pun macam tak tau paper gitu .
blur sotong ! haha !
bey sam masuk balek bilik , and bilang ita bende . something happened ,
only dorng and bestfriend jeh tau .
then biol , aziz , nadia smua kluar bilik . cumer ada ita , sam ngan bestfriend .
dorng smua macam mengamok semacam gitu seh , tapy reason dorng uwat gitu ita tak tau seh .
hais ,
end up , dorng smua binget ngan insert name then smua macam dah geram gila uhs ngan dia .
then dia bubal ngan ita and kita gado rabak ,
kay dah , ita nak skip okay ?
dah biz gado , biol cakap insert name panggel ita . dia nga dudok kat luar living room .
ita dudok sblah dia , then dia tengok ita . dia dudok facing ita .
dia explain kat ita everything , and tears just cant stop faling .
dia peluk ita , then dia pun nanges seh . macam sweet sia dia .
hais . dia cakap harap ita paham dia uhs , and kalau jodoh tak kemaner .
itu apa yang dia cakap , then dia cakap yang dia sayang ita .
wth ? sayang tapy mintak break =.=
pelik tapy benar uhs manusia'manusia zaman sekarang !
skip lah , ita malas nak type panjang'panjang , sumpah !
morning ita bangun , terus balek ngan bestfriend .
bey kat dalam bus ita nampak ikiiy seh . hmmms .
tady py town , jumper shafa , seha , fifey , kathy . and more lah ,
malas nak sebut . hehs ^.^
ita rindu Mr. Cute ita ):
haha !
HAPPY 3rd MONTHSARY BESTFRIEND !
ILOVEYOU !
and thankyou untuk dorng'dorng yang dudok rumah 586 ,
ita sayang korng tau !
im not badly affected by the breakup , but the people around me , like them is like very affected .
thanks for caring so muchy about me korng !
ita appreciate it , sumpah ! :DD
*giggles*
post ; 7 oct 2010 & 8 oct 2010 ^.^
im back to single , and i think i wrote that in my previous post .
*looks down*
im like really shocked cause of what i experienced on that day kat rumah biol .
it was really unexpected uhs , pelik tapy benar .
haha !
actually hary tuh , ita taknak go rumah biol . cause ita tau yang exboyfriend will be there .
ita dah agak , mesty ada gado . and ita nak avoid that fight uhs .
tapy ita pandang bestfriend and jugak biol , cause kita smua nak celebrate birthday biol .
so ita had to go uhs , i was taking a risk by going . but it was for biol and bestfriend .
firstly , went vivo to meet bestfriend . dia nak beli baju , so i teman him (:
went topman to caryk baju yang dia nak , sumpah seh , that day ita go ita nampak baju yang dia nak .
tapy bila gy , baju yang i nampak tuh takda . bey bestfriend cakap ita tipu dia ):
sedeh kan ! haha !
then kita go makan , kat longjohn ;DD
after makan , go smoky'smoky ngan bestfriend .
walked around vivo with bestfriend , then next went to cotton on (:
i pileh kan bestfriend baju oiy ! hehs (:
lawa seh baju tuh yang i pileh kan , sumpah ^.^
baju kemeja satu and satu t'shirt , bey lagy satu bestfriend pileh sendiri :DD
after cotton on , went to kedai 'Diva' i nak tengok'tengok aje . i nak beli bende , tapy takda cent ):
*sobs*
haha !
me and bestfriend jalan'jalan kat dalam kedai 'Diva' tuh for like 30mins seh .
padehal kedai tuh kecik nak mampus , haha !
klakar seh , cause orng kedai tuh satu is mlayu .
bey i tengok'tengok barang , bey i dah ajak bestfriend kluar kedai tuh .
cause dah takda bende nak tengok , then no cent nak buy , tengok pun macam saket haty gitu .
bestfriend maty'maty suruh i pileh bende , dia nak belikan i barang =.=
bey ita cakap , ita tak tau , ita suruh dia pileh cause dia yang nak belikan .
dia taknak , maty'maty nak ita pileh . kita gado kat dalam kedai tuh stakat pasal saper nak pileh =.=
wth , haha !
i nak beli bende yang can remind me of bestfriend , cause itu dia belikan seh .
and it means alot to me , cause exboyfriend sendiri tak penah belikan i barang .
bey ita ternampak satu rantai niy , its like kita bley letak word ke namer apa'apa yang kita nak .
cause they provide the letters , from a to z .
so i thought , i nak beli tuh and letak namer bestfriend (:
sweet kan ita ? tau ! takyah nak cakap ! hahaha !
*prasaan kjap*
heh ,
bestfriend belikan i then orng kedai tuh ada cakap bende .
tapy i tak bley ingat the words she said , ita cumer bley ingat dia cakap .
'bestfriend bley jady lebeh peh .'
i ngan bestfriend dah ketawer'ketawer sia .
wth siak =.=
then me and bestfriend bus'ed to amk , nak go capai minum then go rumah biol .
skip okaay ?
dah sampai rumah biol , lepak . then man pun balek dary keje .
irritating seh man , tapy cute !
haha !
ita suka tengok man bila nga stress , cute gila ! nyahahahaha ~
ada lah story nyer , taknak share . personal (:
then man tanyer ita , dah break ngan insert name ehs ?
ita jawab lah , cakap iye . man like mangkok rabak gitu seh ngan insert name .
ita pun dont know why , man tanyer kenaper bley break ?
ita cakap ngan man yang insert name cakap dia dah macam takda haty kat ita .
man ; senang'senang peh dia cakap gitu ? dah takda haty , huumfpts .
aku try siket tumbuk muka dia , tengok dia raser ke tak , kata dia dah takda haty peh !'
man macam mengamok seh , ita pun tak tau asal . ita shocked seh .
cause ita pun bukan nyer serapat maner seh ngan man and dorng smua .
hmmms ,
skip !
insert name pun sampai , me and bestfriend ambek dia kat bawa , dia suruh =.=
bey dorng smua cakap , dia tak bley naek sendiri peh . dah macam first time datang rumah biol gitu .
haha !
dah ambek dia , naek atas then lepak .
skip !
dah start minum , bey dia ada terlepas cakap bende uhs pat kita smua .
bestfriend , you should know . *looks down*
smua dah start senget siket then dia nak go toilet . lepas tuh sam pun kluar bilik .
then man pun kluar bilik .
dorng macam tak datang'datang balek gitu =.=
aziz kluar py toilet , dia masuk balek then dia cakap yang sam ngan man nga bubal ngan dia pasal ita .
ita blurr lah , cause ita tak suruh seh , and ita pun macam tak tau paper gitu .
blur sotong ! haha !
bey sam masuk balek bilik , and bilang ita bende . something happened ,
only dorng and bestfriend jeh tau .
then biol , aziz , nadia smua kluar bilik . cumer ada ita , sam ngan bestfriend .
dorng smua macam mengamok semacam gitu seh , tapy reason dorng uwat gitu ita tak tau seh .
hais ,
end up , dorng smua binget ngan insert name then smua macam dah geram gila uhs ngan dia .
then dia bubal ngan ita and kita gado rabak ,
kay dah , ita nak skip okay ?
dah biz gado , biol cakap insert name panggel ita . dia nga dudok kat luar living room .
ita dudok sblah dia , then dia tengok ita . dia dudok facing ita .
dia explain kat ita everything , and tears just cant stop faling .
dia peluk ita , then dia pun nanges seh . macam sweet sia dia .
hais . dia cakap harap ita paham dia uhs , and kalau jodoh tak kemaner .
itu apa yang dia cakap , then dia cakap yang dia sayang ita .
wth ? sayang tapy mintak break =.=
pelik tapy benar uhs manusia'manusia zaman sekarang !
skip lah , ita malas nak type panjang'panjang , sumpah !
morning ita bangun , terus balek ngan bestfriend .
bey kat dalam bus ita nampak ikiiy seh . hmmms .
tady py town , jumper shafa , seha , fifey , kathy . and more lah ,
malas nak sebut . hehs ^.^
ita rindu Mr. Cute ita ):
haha !
HAPPY 3rd MONTHSARY BESTFRIEND !
ILOVEYOU !
and thankyou untuk dorng'dorng yang dudok rumah 586 ,
ita sayang korng tau !
im not badly affected by the breakup , but the people around me , like them is like very affected .
thanks for caring so muchy about me korng !
ita appreciate it , sumpah ! :DD
Labels: 3rd monthsary (:
I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 4:27 AM
@ 4:27 AM
♥Wednesday, October 6, 2010♥
okaay , my blog's really dead =.=
sorry for not updating , been busy with life lahs .
im back to my single life now , and im totally fine with it .
as long as my bestfriend is with me , i'll be okaay (:
he's my strength , and he's the reason for my smiles and my laughters .
iloveyou so muchy bhy ^^
i'd spend my whole life with you , and im happy enough to have you as a part of my life .
your the greatest gift allah could have given me , dont ever leave me okaay ?
anyways , im freaking boredd at home =.=
nothing to do , bestfriend working so cant meet him .
baby eira at home sleeping , so im stuck with nothing at home ):
boredd dehh ! cant wait to meet bestfriend tomorrow ^^
teman him buy bajuu ~
suddenly it feels like im starting my old life style back sehh , hmmms .
i've started to club again , but this time my bestfriend is with me .
so i know i wont do any stupid stuffs (:
he loves me , tapy taknak admit =.=
guys and their ego , pffts . it'll always be that way .
*fold arms*
takpe lah , asalkan ita tawu yang dier sayang ita sudah cukup dong ^^
hehs (:
i nak beli bajuu , but'but no cent ~
sedeh right ? ):
*sobs*
hais , i'll just have to wait i guess .
i nak gy club slack uhs , but bestfriend tak kasy . dier suruh i pakai style'style siket .
tapy i tak tawu nak pakai aper ):
cent pun takda , i nak beli bajuuuuuuuu ~
bestfriend , i nak bajuu baruu , i nak gelang baru and cincin baruuuuu ~
):
I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 6:16 PM
@ 6:16 PM
