♥Saturday, August 27, 2011♥
Hey earththings (:
time check ; 3.18 am ,
I'm listening to The perfect two by Auburn , it's set on repeat :D
hek.
I was told to sleep by Baby already actually but then i just couldn't sleep without updating i guess >.<
hekhek.
Guess whatt , my finger are swollen because tercepit kat pintu lift -.-
Dah macam budak kecik kan aku sekejap melalak , sakitt siul /:
ouch !
I've started work at Chinese Garden already , i'm gonna be working my ass off till 18 Sept . No raya for me , figures -.-
Currently my situation with Baby is still the same ):
I've just found out that the reason for Baby being this way with me is actually because of me .
I've hurt Baby without realising it , ohmy ! I didn't do it on purpose actually but whether or not i wanted to do it , i still did it and now i guess karma hits me back cause i'm the one thats hurting ):
I talked to much about her to my friends and Baby thinks that people around us is blaming her for my tears .
I've promised Baby before that i won't talk about her anymore but i did it again , eventhough i didn't talk about her to Baby but i did with my friends .
And thats why Baby's hurt .
Baby thinks that i'm still having doubts in Baby , but really sumpah i don't have doubts anymore *sadface*
BabyBoyfriend , i'm really sorry )':
I don't know what other way i'll have to show to you that i really wanna fix this , i don't want us to be like this .
It's killin me , i can't be like this with you . It just don't feel good ):
Please Baby i'm begging you right now , don't give up on us , don't put whatever that we have to waste .
The changes in you just makes me realise how important you are to me and how much i love you .
Because everynight before i go to sleep i'll miss those kisses that you always give me before i sleep , and those morning kisses ):
hais.
Baby , please i love you so much and i don't wanna lose you because of my stupidity . I really regret and i've no longer have any kinds of stupid thoughts since i've found out .
Because now i know that whatever i had been thinking in the past is all wrong ):
I'm really sorry , please forgive me and treat me like the way you did please )':
You no longer text me saying that you've reached home , or you've left the house already .
We no longer text each other talking pure nonsence , we no longer joke around , you no longer text me saying 'iloveyou'
Do you know how much i missed all that ? If you feel like giving up please i beg you , think back on whatever we've gone thru together and all those wonderful memories together .
Think back of how we've gone thru so many obstacles just to get where we are now , do you really wanna throw all that away Baby ? ):
I don't ! Your all i have now , your the only one that can make me think that life's worth it again .
You ever said to me don't give up on you back then , i didn't . I hold on and that's why we got this far .
I forgive and forget all your mistakes back then , i'm hopping you could do the same for me this time .
Now , i'm saying this to you . Please don't give up on me Bhy )':
If you want i'll go down on my knees just so you don't leave and you'll be back like before .
*wipetears*
Baby , you know how much you mean to me . You know how much i love you ):
You ever said at your blog that you will never think of giving up , i really hope you keep to your words .
I did a mistake , i'm seeking for your forgivness now . Forgive me please ):
I don't want you to change towards me , it hurts . I want us back , i want my BabyBoyfriend back ~
Don't you love me anymore Bhy ? )': hais.
Forgive me and change back to the way we were before *looksdown*
I'm trying my best here to make us like before , but it seems so hard because your just not the same .
And i don't know how to make you understand that this is really making me regret for what i did .
Yes it's my fault , you've punished me for my mistake Baby . I've regret , and this time it's for real , i promise you i won't repeat it again i swear on mummy's name .
Don't give up on us please *coverfaceandcry*
ILOVEYOUSODAMNMUCH BABY ! )':
I wrote a letter earlier on at work and the china man at work passed it to you , the china man laa keep pastering me to write letter to you .
Like budak primary school jeh tulis'tulis surat . Cute right ? I know >.<
The china man saw my face like so sad only that's why he asked what happened , babi cheat my feeling only .
Say Baby miss me padehal dia tak tanye Baby apa'apa pun -.-
tsktsktsk.
Happy sekejap kan , abey dia dapat tahu yang me and Baby not really in good terms , paksa maha paksa aku tulis surat sia (:
Cute bodoh china man tuh , dia kata dia nak tolong aku . Dia nak tengok aku senyum lagi :D
Sweet kan ^.^
It's affecting me alot , like for real . Even when i'm at home i'm still affected and i may say i changed alot thru out this few days .
I'm thinking that Mummy and Abah are noticing it as well . The other day i didn't eat for like two days straight -.-
I'm really lousy without Baby ):
Hais.
I'm really praying hard that everything will be alright soon , really .
*looksdown*
I want us back , i miss us .
Nak mati please ~ haiya.
Life is nothing without Baby's love , care and attention ):
I wanna sleep now , i've got work later . Baby's gonna be mad if i'm gonna sleep late /:
ItaLovesFafad ,
13thLoveConfessions till eternity <3
ilovechuusomuchtoletyougo BabyBoyfriend , muah ! <3<3<3
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I cant get enough of your love ♥
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@ 3:55 AM
♥Thursday, August 25, 2011♥
Hey earththings , today i'm gonna post about my previous text msgs from BabyBoyfriend okay .
Flashbacks occuring (:
Right now i'm sitting alone in my room listening to songs and with nothing to do -.-
Yea , i'm all alone again /: Baby's not here , Baby's back at home .
It's not funny okay , i can't breathe right now . Used my pump , but it dosent seem to be working .
Tsktsktsk.
Ah kay nevermind , don't wanna talk about it . Dah kena marah dengan Mr Shawney dah , dia kata aku degil ?
Actually memang ah aku degil , like tak kenal ita jeh :D hekhek .
I get affected by the stuffs happening around me so easily that i can actually fall sick when i think too much , which is actually happening right now .
Yes , i'm sick /: suay ! ikr ~ gaaaaaaaaaah !
It's hard to say what's the cause of all this , because i'm not sure about it either -.-
It's just that Baby has been acting differently these few days , as what i've post in my previous post right ? Yea still the same thing .
MySweetSugarLove Boyfriend is just not my Boyfriend maaaaaan !
*what are you talking sia ita ! 'my boyfriend is just not my boyfriend' -.- WHAT THE HELL !
Haha ! Biar laa , alaaaaa basically yknow what i mean ah (:
This morning , when i woke up everything seemed to be okay . I mean Baby tried to make it look okay but i knew Baby wasn't okay .
Try to hide it from me as good as you can , but i think i'm a much better faker than you are Bhy , although yeaa you used to fake better than me .
But admit it , i'm a better faker cause i made you believe that i'm in love with someone else before , not you :D
hekhek.
Yey me ! Blergh -.-
*msg tone*
Baby texted me , I WANT MY BOYFRIEND BACK PLEASE ! I DON'T KNOW WHAT IN THE WORLD IS GOING ON BUT I WANT MY BOYFRIEND BACK !
Baby replied me saying 'ahk' what in the world has gone into my boyfriend !?
This sucks big time i swear man )':
I want my Cute lil BabyBoyfriend back , yknow i can't stand it when you ignore me bhy *looksdown*
Kay now below will be all the text msgs okay ? (:
Kay now below will be all the text msgs okay ? (:
Baby's ; Chills . am just asking . thanks ~ (: im sorry if ever all these while i kept hurting you without realising it . i swear i didnt mean to . ILOVEYOU ! dont leave me kay , cause i have no one beside you. (:
Baby's older msgs ,
Baby ; i dont wanna sleep . nak pokkkkk please . ugh !! im addicted to the song . ur voice so sweet . whats wrong with me ? ohh noo ! i cant . *closeeyes* please stop this feeling . nyeet ! shooshoo . go do your stuff . dont wanna disturb . IM MISSING YOU SO MUCH ALREADY ~
Baby ; i dont wanna spoil your day by asking and we talking about 'us' . i still wanna know what you talk about me with your friends . confirm'confirm kalau i kept asking we both will flashback the old time where we drift apart right ? and there it will lead to tears . get it my dearr ? hahaha ! and thats the reason why i dont wanna ask today as i know if i started asking tears will filled you again. gheeees !
Baby ; yerkehh ? baaaah ! hey sweety , here my wish again , my clock strikes 0000hrs already , so here happy birthday to kmuh ayeeh . tuueeeee ~ baaaaaaah ! hope you would have a blast tonight . sorry for not bringing you anything for today , shall waet for my pay day okayys ? i owe you one . enjoy your day tonight yaa , no tears allowed ! maseeeh ah ~ nyeet ! ilovekmulahbudaaaaakkkiiyuuuuuuut ! muaaaaahs ~ *happyfeet* ^^. moh nagesssssss eh !
Baby ; What stuff ? not to the extend okay . ^^. we only hugg and kissed . wuhuuuuux ! should i say i've fallen for you too ? ohhh nooo !! *coverface* okay fadd ! you better shutt your bloody mouth !! pleaaseee .
Baby ; you need not do anything to make someone fall for you right ? feelings come by itself . like how you tell me when i asked you this . ghees ~
Baby ; nothing baby . im okay . just missing someone lately and hardly going to sleep .
Baby ; ohh yesh ? haha ! i is missing our craps so muchie . how !! bile nak jumpe ? nak sleep bawa tiaak lagy , booo ~
Baby ; yahooo ~ yessa . missing my smell ? i know i smell good . baaaaaaaaaah !!
Baby aku sungguh perasaan right ? tahu (: but facts , Baby does smell so good >.<
Baby ; call me . want hear your voice . heh !!
Budak gile , tiba'tiba nak dengar suare aku . Dia rindu aku tuh ^.^ hekhek.
Baby ; da nak start washing niy . but nehmind still can mseg but sorry i reply late okay ? miss texting with you . heh ! ohman , i dont know whats get into me . i keep missing your voice . ugh !! nak tokk !! shit lah ! trip kape aku niy .
Baby ; teach me to do mukaa taik please . haha ! i only know how to do cute face . heee ! spend time with me again i want 1 request can ? sing me song . i want you sing for me . yay !! want lie down and hug you on the bed . wohoooo ! im loving it macam katel bapak aku . can answer honestly ? you still got feelings for me ? haaaa ! random !!
Baby ; just feel like asking . heh !! suka dapat selit bawah tiakkk semalam ?
Baby ; asking . heh !! i keep thinking about you tonight till i kept repeating the song and without notice tears fell . haa ! then i smile . silly me ! ikr !!!
Baby ; i will never regret or say that i wish i would never met you , because once upon a time you were everything i needed . its like SPECIAL vs IMPORTANT . Special is someone you'll never forget for the rest of your life . Important is someone you need for the rest of your life . so babypiggy you are both special and important in my life . no word could judge anything about how i feel about you . and yes i love you more than i love anyone else . you mean more to me than i'll ever let you know . winks !
Baby ; are you okay sayanng ? guess you need a space for your stressness . dont be alone too long . im worried okay .
Baby ; ChintaPiggy , i cant whatsapp anymore . my line kena suspend . wahcheng lahs . anything text me here okays ? and anyways im out to work already okay . i know you think differently about the comment about me calling 'someone' . hey sayangg , that 'someone' is you sayangg . sorry , i know im just being direct today . hey psst'psst , 'akuh sayang kau doh' . tahulah dhie ~ *cutetone*
cute kan budak bodoh niy , ishk. geraaam nyaa !
Baby ; haha . you make me laugh dear . BumbleB ! rindu kmuh deh ! ggr ~
The text msg below , is the text msg i sent to Baby for our 4th monthsary . Damn long ah i tell you first hor ~
Me ; Hey CintaaaPiggy , guess what , right now today marks our 4th month already ^.^ sungguh happy banget ~ hehe. i just wanna let you know that having you as a part of my life has been awesome , i've never once stopped to think that we'll be in this position we're in now , and only god knows how happy i am that you've given me a chance to love you . the first time we met , we became very close , i had a huge crush on you , next thing i knew i fell in love with those eyes and those personality of yours baby , whenever i see you back then i couldnt breathe and my knees became weak , i couldnt stop to look for words to say to you . then came a point where you left , we're apart , it hurt so much not being able to meet you , talk to you nor to even text you . no one knew how much i missed your voice , i missed your presence around me . suddenly you came back into my life and soon became everything i'll ever need we spent times together , those laughters and smiles were caused by you , i am only strong because of you sayang . soon enough i fell deeper into you , and it came the time the happiest day of my life i may say . my birthday , on that day i knew the answers to all my worries . you replied my feelings that i've been having this entire 4 months , no words can explain how touched i am . soon you became a part of me , a daily routine , and each day i'll never stop thinking about you not even for a minute . never once in my life have i waited for someone's text till early in the morning but i did it with you baby . no matter how long , i waited (: i dont require more love than what we have now honey , i dont wanna spoil this moment i swear . like you said , dont change the way we are and stay this way . i agreed cause i dont want anything to change between us , this is perfect enough love . since the day you entered my life , you've changed many things about me without you noticing it and you've made me a stronger person , you made me understand the meaning of loving someone from afar , to learn how to fake myself so that i dont make people worried for me . you teached me how to cry that much for someone . only one thing im still wondering about , there comes a tie where your as sweet as sugaar , then suddenly you just pulled yourself away by not texting me and making me wait and wonder why kmu tak reply . but dont worry my feelings wont change that easy love . thankyou for everything cintaaaa , i appreciate whatever you've done for me . no words can describe how much i love you right now , these words may just be words but theres a million meanings hiden in it baby (: we've shared tears together , laughters , happiness , sillyness , problems , we've faced all kinds of shits and we've gone thru alot of hurt . thru it all we survived , and here we are now . although there were people who dont wanna see us close , we managed to reach this far ~ your my bestfriend , my enemy , my lover and most of all right now your my everything <3 i dont want this to ever end , my love for you has gone deep like what you told me yesterday but i've yet to hear it from you straight , for all i know your a big part of my life now and you'll always be . all i want is to be able to go thru thick and thins with you , to be able to watch you smile and cry . to be around you taking care of you when your sick , spending the happiest or sadest moments with you . being able to hug you whenever possible and to be able to confort you when your down , to wipe your tears and put a smile on you . to be able to sacrifice for you just to see you happy , to be able to smile because of you , to be able to cry because of you , to be able to get angry because of you , to be able to get jealous because of you , most importantly is to be able to feel whats like to be inlove with you . i love you more than anything Sugaar <3 psssssst'psssssst , aku sayang kau doh ~ ! *kissforehead* mwaaah ! >.< 13032011 XD BumbleB <3<3 i'll never forget that name ^.^ Happy 4th Month (:
Long huh ? IKR ~ hekhek.
Baby ; Happy 4months sweetheart ! thanks for all the tender love you gave . im happy enough to have you in my life . even without me having a partner having you already is the best thing . much misses please ..
Okay , Baby aku reaction lambat gile sumpah . dia dah antar aku msg niy lepas tuh dia antar lagi -.- maklum laa , msg panjang sangat kalau aku yang dapat msg giniy bila time tengah keje , mata aku pun naik kero siul -.-
Baby ; sorry late reply . was reading and trying to understand each and every words you said . aaaawww ~ that was ths first time i read a message like this . thanks baby ! having to re-read it again and again makes me in tears of joy . i cant believe this dream ever came true . weeeeeeeeee ~
Baby ; sorrt too . actually wanted to asked so much questions but it just didnt pop out . heart beat fast talking to you yknow .
Cute kan dia ? Heart beat fast siul ~ hahahha ! >.<
Baby ; The truth is that i dont know why i love you . I just know i love you alot ! I dont even know how much i love you , but i just know i will love you forever . Confuse right . I know . I type and readh back also i confuse .
Cute kan budak niy , ya allah ! geraaam nyaa ~ hek .
Baby ; I just want to spend my night with you cant huh ? If not i go home .
Baby ; Im coming your house baby ! adoi . i accompany you at home .
Baby ; its okay lah , kte chillchill after that . ops ! aku pangel kao 'baaay' oh my ~
Budak bodoh niy , dah panggil aku baaay dari previous'previous msg dia tau . baru nak realise -.- geraaaam ! hekhek.
Baby ; Baay , cepat pe dah turun . i scared got liondance . ugh !
I will never forget this msg , oh my ! hahahhaa ! Cute kan budak niy , takut dengan liondance (: bukan dia sorng , aku pun actually :P
Baby ; iknowright ~ maseh nak cry ? ^.^ I<3YOU !
Baby ; tengah maintain niy . do you feel it ? ada rasa apape tak ? haar !
Kurang asham , kalau dapat 10 Boyfriend macam dia sengaje nak kasi aku jealous mati aku tau /: Nasib ada satu jeh <3
Baby ; i raseh'raseh ade orng jealous jah tapi takde intention nak buat orng tuh jealous aah . tapi kan orng tuh ingat i sengaje buat dia jelaous . >.<
Baby ; tapi i nak tengok orng tuh jealous jugak . so waywayway cute pls . hahar !
Ada ke patut , aku jealous dia cakap cute ? -.- tapi takpa laa , dia kalau jealous pun cute >.<
Baby ;tuh alien bukan orng baay . nak rest but i nak jumpe you jugak ~ HOW ?
Baby ; haa . aku dah agak dah . i alek dulu amek bju kay ?
Baby ;err , pls . even thou im single but still im unavailable . i got nno time to find girls or even look at them . u dah ada dah cukup bgy i baay .
Alaaaaaahai , cute kan dia ? Pmpn kat dalam train tengok dia , boleh jadi satu masalah besar bagi dia tau , nyehehhe :D
Baby ; Tkmu tglkn i kay ? Iloveyou bongok !
Dah sweet'sweet cakap takmau tinggalkan dia , bey last part sungguh tak cute . dia panggil aku bongok -.-
Baby ; Yaa . i feel so weak huney . nak jumper ~ ):
Baby ; you jelak jumpe i eh ? kla i straight go home . /:
Baby ; im gg hme ~ baru nak selit bawah tiaak nak manje2 time nak saket gny . i reach hm i text .
Aku ada nak dia rest kat rumah cause bila dia dengan aku budak niy tak reti tidur , abey dia merajuk laa pulak ingatkan aku jelak jumper dia . wahduh dekniy kan , betul laa ! Padehal kan , niy dia dah 2 hari tak tidur . Tetap degil (:
Baby ; Merajuk tetap ade tapi akuh tetap nak jumpe kau , aku tak kesah !
Bodoh nya budak cute <3
Baby ; you should be jealous cause sometime i also do . as long as you trust me that shouldnt be a prob . eventhough im out of your side but still you stays in my damn heart !
Baby ; mane ada maraa . i dh smpi . Baay cpt pls . Tkmu uat i jealous pls .
Hekhek. Tak boleh lupa sia msg niy , actually dia nak type 'risau' typo jadi 'jealous' pulak , hahha ! bodoh ~ <3
Baby ; You okay ? iloveyoudear ! so much .
Baby ; Baaaaaaah ! kau maseh nk uat aku jeles !
Baby ; Nice song . *whisper to ur ear* iloveyoubaby ~
Ya allah , sweet nya boyfriend aku yang satu niy <3<3 fell in love lagi ah dengan dia please :DD
Baby ; why never text me ? i've waited for your text cox i dont wanna disturb you . are you still mad at me ? mummy dengan abah dah okay ?
Baby ; B nanak sadsad lgy kays . i is dont like you like this la . i cant afford to see your sad face .
Kay that was all the old msgs from baby , before kite matey (: now is the latest ones ~
Baby ; just what are you doing baby kept scrolling the phone ? cute kan kauu ! dont ask why just that i feel that way . *cubitpipikau*
Baby ; cute kan kau senyumsenyum sendirik . *tiptoetiptoe* nak kaypoh sikit pleaseee ~ buat peh tuh ?
Baby ; dont know . just feel like you today so tiuuuuut .
Baby ; your boyfriend here becum insane liao . how ?
Me ; i everyday cute , only you dont know laa ~ nyahahaha ! angkaat bakul sendiri sekejap eh , jap lagi i letak balik bakul kat bawah LOLOLOL ~
Me ; my boyfriend everyday insane one laa , because your girlfriend too cute already thats why you become insane :P
Baby ; cepat nye you dah nk alek ~ ): rewind time pleaase !!
Baby ; mentang'mentang free mseg kan aseeeeek msg jah pdhal kat sbla'sbla (Y)
Baby ; im ur bf dear . even if im not there dosent mean i dont know whats happening in your daily routine . (:
My msg to Baby for our 5th month (:
Me ; Hey MySweetSugarLove Boyfriend , guess what it's 12am already and it's the 13th August ! Thankyou for every single thing you've done for me love , thankyou for showering me with your love and care all this while . You've been the greatest Boyfriend any girl would ever ask for , although we may not have any strings attached i still feel as though i'm your girlfriend . I know that we've been going thru alot of obstacles since we've been together but hey you hanged on , and you fought for us . You didnt give up and i'm glad you didnt because i didnt give up either , we're going thru this love story together baby ! You lightup y days sho much that i barely even think of anything other than us baby (: Ilovechuu sho much BabyBoyfriend , no words is enough to explain to you love . promise to never leave me and always be faithful to me because i'm promising you the same thing baby . I'll always lovechuu , muah muah muah ! Happy 5th Monthsary MyLove <3<3<3 ItaSayaaaaaaaaangFafad ,
13thLoveConfessions till eternity <3
Cekik darah betul budak niy , asyik aku send panjang'panjang mesti dia reply pendek -.- tapi takpa , tetap sweet :D
Baby ; Happy5thmonthsary too you too BumbleBaay . thanks for all the patience that uve given too in us . i appreciate it much ! <3 thanks too for accepting the way i are . till now we're still hanging on looking for our happiness ahead . im glad we did it baby . ohoh , im just lost of word tonight . ilovechuumuchiee please . hey love can i owned you pleaseeeeeeeeee ? >.<
Me ; *speechless* i'm already yours right baby ? what you mean by you wanna owned me , (: im already yours at heart <3
Baby ; officially mine ? *coverfaceeeeeee*
Cute kan budak niy ? ya allah ! No wonder laa aku jatuh hati kat kau in the first place (: hekhek .
Kay this post is like damn long maaaaan ! Woaaaah ~ IKR >.<
Dah sudah laa tuh , my fingers are tired . Too much typing yoaa ! hekhek.
Kalau part'part msg ada banyak typo sorry ah ye , i type without looking at my lappy . My eyes were looking at my phone jeh (:
Reading thru all the old msgs just lead me to tears , cause i'm missing Baby so much right now . I mean i'm missing my BOYFRIEND not the person who is in my Boyfriend's body right now . *boleh gitu eh , boyfriend aku nya badan ada orng lain masuk* -.-
hahahah !
Kalau part'part msg ada banyak typo sorry ah ye , i type without looking at my lappy . My eyes were looking at my phone jeh (:
Reading thru all the old msgs just lead me to tears , cause i'm missing Baby so much right now . I mean i'm missing my BOYFRIEND not the person who is in my Boyfriend's body right now . *boleh gitu eh , boyfriend aku nya badan ada orng lain masuk* -.-
hahahah !
Currenly , my Baby's still like not herself yet . Somehow , i mean yes Baby text me but still i know it's not my Cute lil BabyBoyfriend who's texting me .
It's someone else in my Boyfriend's body /:
I just hope Baby bring herself up soon and be back like normal soon ):
I don't like my Baby like this because somehow without her realising it , it affects me too .
And know whatt ?!! Just now after work briefing , i didnt kiss Baby ! OHMYYY ~ What in the hell was in my fucking brains maaaan !
Aku pun dah sawan peh sia !? Takut sangat yang Baby taknak cium aku , sampai aku tak cium dia ! Bodoh nya aku ya allah ~
Now Baby's out with friends , and i don't know where the hell Baby is . I'm kinda worried actually but i don't wanna bother Baby by asking cause i know Baby's not in the mood and i know that Baby's under some stress now .
I understand so much , that's why i'll just wait patiently here and just hopping and praying that things will be alright soon .
Look , maybe you may think that just because i'm your girlfriend now you don't wanna share certain things with me .
Listen Baby , it dosent make a difference now whether i'm your girlfriend or i was your bestfriend back then . You can still turn to me yknow .
But you just choose not to , i have no idea why . Whatever that happens , remember that iloveyou okay ?
Whatever problems that will come between us , i won't ever give up because there's a million and one reasons for me to hold on .
For me , our lovestory is waywayway too special for me just to let it go just like that . I treasure it so much Baby .
Be strong okay Baby , there's always a solution to every single problems in life .
Ilovechuu BabyBoyfriend , now and forever <3
13thLoveConfessions till eternity <3
Remember , Ita Always Loves Fafad ~
muah muah muah !
One request Baby , if you happen to read this listen to the song 'The perfect two' by Auburn (:
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I cant get enough of your love ♥
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