♥Tuesday, August 23, 2011♥
Hey earththings , i'm sitting here in my room with BabyBoyfriend sleeping soundly next to me (:
Time check , now is like 2pm and yeaa i'm still widely awake . I can't put myself to sleep maaaaan !
Ohshitttt ~ gaaaaaaaaaah !
I'm not really sure of what's bothering me right now , everything's perfectly fine right now with Baby and i'm happy :D
By what i've just said above everyone will think , okay one happy couple here , done bye .
The story ain't as simple as that alright earththings , although everything is fine and we're happy dosen't mean there's nothing behind it all .
Baby brings out the best of me and i won't deny that at all , but i can't help it but whenever i look at Baby , i'll start to wonder .
Is Baby happy being with me all this time . If we're having some sort of an misunderstanding or maybe just something that makes Baby sad or pissed with me , i'll start to think . Why can't i make Baby happy with my presence , have i been a very bad girlfriend ?
All i want is to see Baby happy , i want Baby to stop hurting . I know what Baby's been thru all this while , i've watched and i've cried along with Baby too . I just want to have the chance to make Baby happy and to stop hurting for once , but i don't know if i've been doing enough ):
Knowing of the fact that Baby still do cry when Baby's with me now makes me feel so sucky because i feel as though i just can't make Baby happy .
As what i've told BabyTia , Baby's just too important to me . I can't bare to ever see Baby sad , I won't ever have the heart to hurt Baby and i will never .
Since the very first time Baby entered my life , alot has changed . I changed , into a better person i may say .
Back then when Baby was just my bestfriend , Baby was sucha important person to me that when Baby cried , i cried along with Baby because i felt that hurt that Baby's feeling . I just couldn't bare to see people out there hurting Baby , it made me pissed .
Now that Baby is my boyfriend , ofcos Baby's like 10 times more important to me compared to last time .
To be where i am today i had to sacrifice so many things and i had to go thru so much hurt . I endured with all those heart pain i was going thru because i had to watch Baby be with some other girl right infront of me , and i had to give advices to Baby about those girls eventhough it hurt me so much . I just took it all as a learning and i continued to love Baby from afar ~
I learnt how to be more patient and to accept whatever that may come in my way , and thanks to all my patience here i am with Baby (:
Seeing you everyday now makes me feel like my life's complete , i don't need anything . Just by having you by my side is perfect enough Bhy .
I know that sometimes i do keep stuffs from you , and i'm sorry for that Baby . It's not that i don't want to share it with you but it's just that i don't want us to fight or anything . And it's all just some remeh temeh stuffs anyways . My mind is just fucking with me (:
There's nothing to worry about aye :D
NurFadzillah , back then and up till now you've always been my first priority and you've been my everything . You've always been there for me , loving me and caring for me . You always lend me a shoulder to cry on and you always wipe my tears away and make me smile when i'm down .
Your the greatest gift Allah has given me . All this still feels like a dream to me yknow , because i've always dreamt of this but i knew it will never happen but it did and up till now i still can't believe it . Being with you brings out the best of me , i'll never get bored sitting with you in one house and in one room for like 24 hours , we'll just find something to do (:
I get so worked up when yknow who texts you , i get so jealous . I'm sorry for being jealous and maybe sometimes i do over'react .
I'm sorry Baby , it's just that iloveyoutoomuch that i'm always scared someone would take you away from me .
Everynight or everymorning before i close my eyes and go to sleep , i'll always think will anyone ever take you away from me ?
It's kinda dumb to think of this kinda stupid stuffs , yeaa i'm admitting it's stupid because i shouldn't be thinking like this .
It just feels so great being able to tell everyone that i'm your girlfriend , because i feel so proud to be yours .
Your just too perfect for me Baby , i may say that you make me so special . Just by the way you show your love towards me and just by the way you say you love me . You don't say it often but it sounds like the perfect melody to my ears ~
When you kiss my forehead and hug me everytime i cried , it felt as though no one has everdone it better than the way you do it .
You make me feel so safe in your arms and i just don't want you to let me go .
When you hug me , kiss me , hold my hands , look me in the eye , you make me feel as though i'm the only thing that matters to you .
The feelings is just so wonderful , Baby if i could ever ask you for one wish , you know what it'll be ?
I just want you to love me always and up till the end baby <3
I want to make you happy with me , i want you to stop hurting and crying , i want you to be happy together with me .
Your different from all my ex , or anyone that i've been with before . You way too different Baby , your special , your the only one who can make me fall in love with you like a million times ~
I promise i'll try to be the best for you , i'll try to always make you happy and i'll always make you smile .
I just love you too much Baby , please keep that in mind (:
itacintamatidenganfafad ~
ItaSayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangFafad (:
13thLoveConfessions till eternity >.<
ilovechuutoomuchtoletyougo BabyFad , muah muah muah ! <3<3<3
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I cant get enough of your love ♥
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