♥Thursday, September 29, 2011♥
I'm currently sitting here in the living room watching 'The X Factor' together with mmy while texting away with my baby ,
Suddenly i just felt like updating my blog , and i don't know why . Maybe i'm just really more than happy with what's happening right now .
My situation with Baby is really awesome right now , i'm sho lovinnnnn ittttt :DD
And i just felt like being very honest with you right now , after you read this post i really hope you'll smile alone right there where you are now .
I ain't putting up any scipt here to tell you how i feel about you and about us , i'm not sure either why these words entered my mind (:
Sometime when i'm all alone in my room and i can't put myself to sleep although i'm very darn tired , i'll always think about you .
It's the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you , when it hits me , i mean really hits me all these thoughts and questions rush through my head at once . A sad emotion even stars to creep on me slowly inch by inch as i start to wonder .
What if for some reason things don't work out ? How is it possible going to live without you ?
Someone that was once a stranger now is the only person i know like the back of my hand .
Someone i once had no emotions for , now has the power to break my heart .
Someone i never used to hang out with , now owns most of my time .
Someone i never thought i'd love , now owns my entire heart .
Someone i once lived without , i now wish to hold onto forever .
To me , the best relationship is when we two can act like lovers and bestfriends . It's when we have more playful moments than serious moments ,
It's when we can joke around , have unexpected hugs and random kisses .
It's when we two give each other that specific stare and just smile . It's when we rather chill at home to watch movies , eat junk food and cuddle than go out all the time .
It's when we'll stay up all night just to settle our arguments and problems .
It's when we can completely act like ourselves and we'll still love each other for who we are .
Baby , if your are going to fall in love with me fully and give your all to me , it's only fair that you know what your falling in love with and i'll give you my all too (:
You are falling in love with my insecurities , and my obsession with trying to figure out what's perfect for you .
You are falling in love with my immaturity , my constant need to feel loved and appreciated , my overactive tear ducts ,
my tendency to be too clingy to you and my really over the moon jealousy .
You fall in love with me , you fall in love with my trobled past which i changed , and my hopes and dreams
and how i'm a hopeless romantic at heart and my emotional self .
If you fall in love with me , you fall in love with my self hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me as much as you do .
But you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when i'm with you , the way i'll text you in the mornings just telling you i hope you have a great day and how i would always be waiting for your text and how i would put your text first than whatever i'm doing at that moment .
Your falling in love with the humorous , extreamly irritating yet cute , bubbly and cheerful character of mine , and the way i blush when people asks me about you .
But to me , the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me , despite my thinking that it was impossible before .
Honey , i don't expect our journey to be perfect thruout . I know that we'll fight , and we'll cry we'll sulk with each other .
But i just know that we'll definitely fix things up and everything will be fine again (:
The way we talk silly things together and how we'll just irritate each other to entertain ourselves ,
i can never do that with anyone else exept you (:
Remember the time when we'll beat each other for the sake of it ? hekhek. It's the best moments ever .
I love the way we cry on each other when we'll have open talk and i'll start to be all emotional first , hehehe.
I love it how you calls me baby , i love how demanding you can be at times . I love to watch you look at your hp with that blur face of yours :P
I love how you hug me in my sleep , i love how you'll cuddle up to me when your sick , and i just love how manje you are to me .
I love how you need my attention so much , i love how cute you can be sometimes .
I love how you smile , laugh , nag , gets jealous and i love looking at your face when your acting angry :DD
heks . Sho cute like AngryBabi >.<
I love it when you becomes so random and just tell me you love me (:
It's the best damn thing ever :D
Being with you , makes me feel like i've never been in love before . Awesomeeee babyyyy ^.^
So i think i'm all done here , i hope you smiled while reading this sweetheart ~
Takecare at work okay , don't gatal'gatal eh . No hanky panky sayaang , mehehehe.
Iloveyou so much AngryBabi , muah muah !
13th till eternity <3
Labels: 13thLoveConfessions
I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 11:52 PM
@ 11:52 PM
♥♥
Somehow somewhere , deep in me there's a lil cut . It's so small and thin that it can't been seen at all .
It's practally invisible if seen by naked eyes , but when someone poured salt water to it , the pain was unexplainable by humans .
I didn't know someone could love someone this much , until i'm the one feeling this love for you .
There's this girl , so different from everyone else which makes you stand out that i noticed you and fell in love instantly .
So ordinary in your own ways yet so special , you did nothing to make me fall for you , nothing special done yet i'm so deeply in love with you .
You make me feel so loved and you make me feel so safe when i'm in your arms , that sometimes when you hug me and i watch you sleep ,
tears filled me . Because i'm scared of the fact of losing you one day , because i don't know what would life be like without you around .
Yes , you've hurt me and i've cried so much . Yet still until today i don't find a reason why i should live my life without those tears and you .
I need you with me , because you are my only strength . You keep me walking thru this tough life that i'm facing .
The hurt that i feel is nothing compared to the love that i have for you , it's so pure and strong that i get too carried away in it .
Till i'm swimming in my own thoughts of sorrows because i don't want to lose you , the truth is i'm afraid .
I've prepared myself for hurt when i fell in love with you , because i just knew it wasn't gonna be easy .
But despite all that , i knew it was going to be the ride of my life and i'm gonna enjoy it so much that it could make me cry so much (:
Your the best thing that has happened to me thruout my whole life , and i'm giving you my all . Every single bit that's in me , i'm giving it all to you .
I'm trusting you with my all , because i know your worth it . Never once have i given my all to someone , but i'm giving you my all because i know your worth all my tears and sufferings . Your someone that will only come by once in my life , and i've just realised that i'll never find someone like you .
I'm sorry that i'm not perfect for you , i have my flaws baby . It's only up to you to decide whether or not your willing to accept me as what i am .
I don't have anything to offer you , but all there is in me to give to you is all the love , care and attention that you need .
I've changed alot since i'm with you , oh wayway too much if i can say . Mamat asked me why wasn't i this understanding to him back then but i'm very understanding to you now , and all i said was people change as the right person comes along (:
I've been so understanding about so many things baby , i've allowed you to do the stuffs which no other gf would allow their bf to .
And i may say you would'nt even allow me to do half of the things that i've allowed you to do :D
I just don't favour my bf lying , and some will say 'if i tell the truth also bukannya you kasi peh' that's the reason why all i said to you was , just tell me and i'll allow . I ain't that bad sayaang .
Remember when i ever said to you , i will do whatever that makes you happy ? I just want you to know that i really meant it , there's no sweet words here or anything okay sweetheart , i just wanna let you know that's all .
Iloveyou way too much that your happiness is all that matters to me , and nothing else .
I'm giving you my all right now , i'm not lying about it . But please apprecaite my all , don't put me to waste baby .
If you love me , treat me like you really do . Let's state a fact here honey , no girl wants to come second to any girl .
If you love me and choose to lead your life with me , please don't put me second to any girl .
And when you appreciate me , nothing else matters to me but you . I'll drop everything and everyone for you , as i've said i'll give you my all .
Baby , being in love with you and having the chance of being able to love you has been the ride of my life .
I've learnt so many things , i've became stonger , and i've learnt that i could love someone this much .
Your everything to me right now love , and i really don't wish to lose you .
I'm sorry to say this right here , but i'm asking you this because i need to know .
Are you serious being with me love ? Do you really wanna go far with me ? Are you willing to be patient and go thru thick and thin together ?
Would you love me at my worst ? Will you love me and only me alone ?
This questions asked is not because i don't trust you , it's because i need to know from you straight i just wanna hear it from you .
Being with me isn't that simple sayaang , because i don't favour you contacting other girls and you'll have to drop that for me .
I think i've kept silent about this for too long already and i've gotta make it clear to you that i don't like it .
Just as much as you don't like me contacting guys , it's the same to me too .
I'm telling you right here , openly about what i dislike okay honey and let's treat each other equally .
We settled one problem , she's out of the story totally . Not another one please , i don't wanna share you .
As i know i've said this before to you , i'm gonna repeat it again . I ain't sharing what's mine .
Baby , i've never asked you for anything before , but i'm asking you here for the first time okay .
please , no more hanky panky sayaang , no more girls .
Usally i would like keep all this to myself , but i already promised you that i'll tegur if your doing something i don't like .
And i is no like laa like this , jealous ):
I don't wanna come second and i don't wanna share , no girl wanna share what is rightfully their' .
I'm sure you would'nt wanna share me with anyone else right ? That's how i feel .
I hope you get what i'm tryna point out here and don't get the wrong idea okay baby ? (:
And hey my cute lil baby , don't let your thoughts get to you alright ? I'll tell you when something's wrong , i know that maybe i fake too good that you would'nt even notice but i'll tell you for sure , for right now i'm fine honey (':
Actually i'm not , i'm lying all the while when i say to you i'm fine . Curious , wanna know why ?
Because IMISSYOUSOSOMUCH , it's getting the best of me right now and i'm sick till today maybe partly because of that ):
I just missed you smell and everything about you , although i may smell like you right now because i'm using pasir hilton perfume :DD
Lovinnnn ittttttt :P Don't ask how come , long story ~ But still i miss your smell ):
akulovekau bodoh ! (':
I'm done here , i've said enough . Think it thru alright sayaang ?
iloveyou , so so much *kissforehead* *looks at you* more than anything *kissnose*
bye AngryBabi <3 muah !
Labels: 13thLoveConfessions
I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 6:45 AM
@ 6:45 AM
♥Friday, September 9, 2011♥
Baby went plaaay just now , while i was at work/home . Woaaaaaaah sedih !
Wanted to go club since that time sampai ke sekarang laa masih belum jugak jejak lagi . Tuuuuuuuupid !
Nevermind , after work i can go ~ (:
Baby said that clubbing without me is boring , padan mukaa Baby !
Siapa suruh Pergi ! hekhek.
Kan dah mendak , (Y)
I'm missing my Baby sho much right now , how i wish Baby was here right next to me right now maaaaaaan ):
I'm sleepy but i just don't wanna sleep , cause i miss Baby sho much that i just wanna keep hearing her voice .
Yknow sometimes , questions still do fill this bloody tuuuupid head of mine . But i insist on not layan'ing those questions too much because i'll start thinking and it'll start to make me wonder more and more . Not healthy , i no likey !
I'm sho glad that i've fixed everything and now i can be myself again (;
Baby , i'm sho waiting for 13th maaaaaaan !
Iloveyousomuch BabyFad <3 muah ! 13thLoveConfessions till eternity <3<3 I'll love you till the end Baby ! >.<
Labels: 13thLoveConfessions
I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 6:34 AM
@ 6:34 AM
♥Wednesday, September 7, 2011♥
I'm here in my room lying down listening to the tune of Neyo's 'I'm in love' , i fell in love with the song the first time i heard it :D hehehe.
Home alone baby ~ haha ! yeaa , i'm all alone . Baby's at work and i'm having my off today .
Pity baby , gonna be bored at work today . hehe.
Baby said that she's gonna be bored at work without me there , sweetness (:
Alright zombies , i'm gonna get back on track with reality now ayee .
Things take place , shits happen , times passes by , words turn into hurt , actions became an open wound .
Too many wrongs now that i see i've done , yes i am to be blamed . I have an opened secret that i think Baby should know , but i have no idea whether Baby already knows it .
Because of this ass freak stuffs happening , i'm the one to bare all the hurt .
Blaming myself for everything every single night , feeling so guilty each and everytime i look into Baby's eyes , and thinking to myself will Baby be mad at me for all this .
This shits wasn't planned by me , i was forced to do this by someone . I've gone thru enough hurt thru out my life and i just wanna be happy .
As a decent human , i too deserve my happiness . And to me , I want Baby to deserve the happiness that she needs . I know what She's been thru before and i don't want her to keep on hurting .
I want to be the one who makes her smile and laugh , i want her to know what's it like to be in love again .
I don't want some play around relationship that will only last for a few months , i wanna last with Baby . I don't always say this , but i want Baby to stay and be a part of my life .
I feel happy when i'm with her , all of the little things she does makes me smile and her sillyness makes me laugh .
She dosen't have to put in sweet talks but all of those random stuffs she says actually makes my day , each time she says she misses me and loves me makes me blush oh so much even until today .
I'll never get bored just texting with her talking pure nonsence , i'll never get bored just sitting in one room with her doing absolutely nothing but just stare at each other .
No matter how hard things may get , i'll never get tired wasting my tears for her . Because i know it's worth it .
Girl , your the best damn thing that has happened to me . After so long of going thru so much hurt , now with you in my life i can feel happiness once again .
I thank you again for being so patient with me , for tolerating all my shits and for always being patient entertaining me when i'm sick .
The way you takecare of me , the way you scold me and the way you'll nag at me for not having my meals makes me happy , because i've got sucha caring and loving boyfriend .
I know i also may nag at you alot , i may be very irritating at times , i may disturb you alot and i may bully you too , i may say that this is me . This is the way i am . I'm sure your aware of that too .
I'm cheerful and i'll keep all the hurt all to myself . Whatever that you may throw at my way i'll just take it all in and will never complain . It's so not like me if i would make a big fuss about it . After you've read the notes in my phone then you'll know what i'm talking about right here .
I'm done tryna hurt you , i'm done . I don't wanna continue it anymore , i want our all sweet , mushy , cute , loving relationship back .
I've had enough with all this fights , misunderstandings , sulking , ignoring . Neh , i've got enough of that .
I want the cheerful , care about nothing else but our relationship us back .
I'm gonna put a end to all this faking and i'll be back to the real me , which i may say the one you fell in love with before .
Truthfully , i miss that part of me as well . And i miss the you that i fell in love with too (':
With me changing back to the real me , i hope you'll too . Baby , i want all of our moments back , those laughters , late night laughs , those sillyness of ours meant so much to me .
It was the best memories i've had yet , i'm sorry i fake wayway to good that you can't even seems to notice i was faking .
I'm sorry to have caused you so much hurt all this time i was faking , i'm sorry i've been keeping all this as a very good secret .
I didn't mean to , i hope you understand my reasons . I was forced to do this , i hope you won't be mad at me for this .
I hope that after you've known we'll be back like the way we used to be ~
I really hope so ):
It wasn't my intention love , really .
I'm sorry , and iloveyou more than life itself <3 Forgive me for doing this love , 13thLoveConfessions till eternity <3<3 Remember , Ita Loves Fafad So Damn Much (': muah muah muah !
Labels: 13thLoveConfessions
I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 6:39 PM
@ 6:39 PM
