♥Wednesday, September 7, 2011♥
I'm here in my room lying down listening to the tune of Neyo's 'I'm in love' , i fell in love with the song the first time i heard it :D hehehe.
Home alone baby ~ haha ! yeaa , i'm all alone . Baby's at work and i'm having my off today .
Pity baby , gonna be bored at work today . hehe.
Baby said that she's gonna be bored at work without me there , sweetness (:
Alright zombies , i'm gonna get back on track with reality now ayee .
Things take place , shits happen , times passes by , words turn into hurt , actions became an open wound .
Too many wrongs now that i see i've done , yes i am to be blamed . I have an opened secret that i think Baby should know , but i have no idea whether Baby already knows it .
Because of this ass freak stuffs happening , i'm the one to bare all the hurt .
Blaming myself for everything every single night , feeling so guilty each and everytime i look into Baby's eyes , and thinking to myself will Baby be mad at me for all this .
This shits wasn't planned by me , i was forced to do this by someone . I've gone thru enough hurt thru out my life and i just wanna be happy .
As a decent human , i too deserve my happiness . And to me , I want Baby to deserve the happiness that she needs . I know what She's been thru before and i don't want her to keep on hurting .
I want to be the one who makes her smile and laugh , i want her to know what's it like to be in love again .
I don't want some play around relationship that will only last for a few months , i wanna last with Baby . I don't always say this , but i want Baby to stay and be a part of my life .
I feel happy when i'm with her , all of the little things she does makes me smile and her sillyness makes me laugh .
She dosen't have to put in sweet talks but all of those random stuffs she says actually makes my day , each time she says she misses me and loves me makes me blush oh so much even until today .
I'll never get bored just texting with her talking pure nonsence , i'll never get bored just sitting in one room with her doing absolutely nothing but just stare at each other .
No matter how hard things may get , i'll never get tired wasting my tears for her . Because i know it's worth it .
Girl , your the best damn thing that has happened to me . After so long of going thru so much hurt , now with you in my life i can feel happiness once again .
I thank you again for being so patient with me , for tolerating all my shits and for always being patient entertaining me when i'm sick .
The way you takecare of me , the way you scold me and the way you'll nag at me for not having my meals makes me happy , because i've got sucha caring and loving boyfriend .
I know i also may nag at you alot , i may be very irritating at times , i may disturb you alot and i may bully you too , i may say that this is me . This is the way i am . I'm sure your aware of that too .
I'm cheerful and i'll keep all the hurt all to myself . Whatever that you may throw at my way i'll just take it all in and will never complain . It's so not like me if i would make a big fuss about it . After you've read the notes in my phone then you'll know what i'm talking about right here .
I'm done tryna hurt you , i'm done . I don't wanna continue it anymore , i want our all sweet , mushy , cute , loving relationship back .
I've had enough with all this fights , misunderstandings , sulking , ignoring . Neh , i've got enough of that .
I want the cheerful , care about nothing else but our relationship us back .
I'm gonna put a end to all this faking and i'll be back to the real me , which i may say the one you fell in love with before .
Truthfully , i miss that part of me as well . And i miss the you that i fell in love with too (':
With me changing back to the real me , i hope you'll too . Baby , i want all of our moments back , those laughters , late night laughs , those sillyness of ours meant so much to me .
It was the best memories i've had yet , i'm sorry i fake wayway to good that you can't even seems to notice i was faking .
I'm sorry to have caused you so much hurt all this time i was faking , i'm sorry i've been keeping all this as a very good secret .
I didn't mean to , i hope you understand my reasons . I was forced to do this , i hope you won't be mad at me for this .
I hope that after you've known we'll be back like the way we used to be ~
I really hope so ):
It wasn't my intention love , really .
I'm sorry , and iloveyou more than life itself <3 Forgive me for doing this love , 13thLoveConfessions till eternity <3<3 Remember , Ita Loves Fafad So Damn Much (': muah muah muah !
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