♥Saturday, October 22, 2011♥
Its almost 6am already and im not asleep yet /: tsktsk.
I cant sleep laa , wahduh! Im sitting alone in my room with nothing to do and no one to entertain me -.-
Im listening to Chris Rene's song , ohmygod! Im like really in love rabaks eh dengan lagu dia!
Sedap gileeeee! Tak bedek , rasa chocolate ^^.
Believe it or not uh , i've been repeating the song since this morning until now .
Tak tukar lagu pun eh! Serious! Sumpah tak bedek :D
Girlfriend's not replying my text uh , idk what is she doing ah . The last i know is that she's eating tapi lepas tuh tak tahu (:
I've been on facebook since just now , but i didnt even touch the lappy i just stare at my fb screen -.-
See! Thats how bored i am /: kesian eh ? Iknow!
Okay basically , i didnt do anything at all today exept for doing my phone . Wanna know why ?
Cause tangan aku niy gatal sesangat kan , aku gi update software aku to ios5 tthen my internet connection fucked up then i had to retore my phone ,
and i lost everything ): Woah sad life huh! Then when i wanted to backup my files , i actually forgot the password for my backup files /:
Lagi sedih siul! Aku perah otak siak setakat nak dapatkan password , bey aku dengan Tia gi bugis jumpe Dee .
I thought one of the phone shops there could help me , but they asked me to go back to apple store -.-
And Girlfriend scolded me cause my tangan damn gatal ):
Actually i was fighting with Baby laa yesterday and i may say that yesterday was one of the worst days of my life!
first , i fight with Baby , second my phone crashed , third i fight with Baby , fourth I FIGHT WITH BABY!
hahahaha!
Cute or what sia aku! *tak tahu malu eh kau cakap diri sendiri cute!*
hekhek.
Korng imagine ah! *cepat imagine!* Kay sorry , i mendak laa tuh pasal i melalut dari tadi :D
Try to imagine ah , i dah laa tak tidur satu hari penuh tau , abey pepagi bute kul 6.13am semalam Baby carik pasal .
Adoii! Tak ke macam nak pecah kepale otak aku ): sad life sad life!
Bey at around 7am plus , i actually fell asleep for like 10mins then Tia called and ajak jumpe .
Malam nye , bile dah kat bugis , around 8.40 Baby ajak i jumpe! Happy nye!
Then Dee and Tia went home , and i waited for Baby kat depan BurgerKing sorng .
Ada this group of idk malay old guys or indon guys were like standing right infront of me , then they just kept looking at me and senyumsenyum _l_
Mata satusatu mintak kene cocok man! Walaueh! I dah takutt eh! Sumpah tak bedek!
Then the people who was sitting next to me went off and they actually sat next to me!
Hati i dah macam nak tercabut eh untuk pengetahuan korng!
Dalam hati i dah macam 'Baby i mana niy , i dah nak terkencing niy tau! Adoii!*
hahahahaha!
Next thing i knew i saw Baby and my face lighted up Baby terus pulled me away from there then kite jalan tapi tak tahu nak pergi mane -.-
Endup kite duduk dekat This Fashion sane , bey Baby asked me about my phone and all .
Baby do my phone for me and now i have like a brand new iphone seh -.- Happy nye , NOT!
I tak kesah sangat laa pasal gambar , games and all only the msgs and the notes in my phone! is like my whole life yknow!
Msgmsg orng lain i tak heran ah! Tapi since the starting msgs from Baby all i kept yknow!
I melalak eh macam budak tongong kat rumah setakat pasal Baby nye msgmsg lame )':
Baby i cute gilee tahu tak , i cakap dengan Baby while Baby was doing my phone .
me ; Baby! Cepat cakap , you rindu i and you sayang i *buat muka cute* *laughs*
Baby ; *looks at me then looks at lappy* I sayang you , i rindu you and i cintakan you! *senyumsenyum sendiri macam budak gile*
me ; Awwwwwh , sweet nye babi i! Tapi i suruh you cakap you rindu i and you sayang i jeh . Asal ada lebih ?
Baby ; tak boleh ke ?
Me ; Boleh boleh boleh *senyum banyakbanyak lagi*
Cute kan Girlfriend i yang satu niy ^^.
I sayaang dia banyakbanyak laa~ mehehe.
After that me and Baby walked back to bugis street and duduk luar 711 , we had a very long talk .
When i say 'we' what i meant was i did all the talking and Baby did all the listening -.-
tsktsktsk.
*penat tau tak bhy i asyik bubal jeh , bile laa you punye turn yang bubal i yang diam ?* mehehehe.
Yknow whuat! Baby ah sho naughty! Tipu aku cakap yang dia stim , padehal tidak -.-
Dia sengaje nak buat i risau pasal dia! Tak baik nyeeeeeeeee! Tapi takpa laa , i suke >.<
hehehe :P
Then Baby antar i pergi bus stop then i balik , ontheway home all the way texted with Baby jeh .
Then bile i dah sampai rumah kite duadua tertidur while waiting for each other's reply /:
She fell asleep while waiting for my reply , and when i replied her already , i fell asleep pulak cause Baby kan dah tidur macam mane nak reply i (:
Cuteness ~ XD
I penat laa type panjangpanjang , i nak gi tidur ah . penat niy! I rasa Baby i tidur ah ~ Really , cause kan dia tak reply dari tadi /:
Dah laa , bye people ^^.
I sayaang Girlfriend i okay! <3
13thLoveConfessions till eternity , CintaTigaBelas Hingga Akhir Hayat <3
iloveyou and imissyou so much Baby , muah muah muah!
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I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 6:09 AM
@ 6:09 AM
♥Thursday, October 20, 2011♥
I'm watching tv right now alone in the living room , decently waiting for Baby's reply .
Okay , i think i really suck so much today , because i kinda like treated Baby like shit .
I admit , and i'm veryvery sorry Baby . I totally didn't mean it really .
I hope you tak fikir bukanbukan ye , yknow how i am when i get all worried about you right ?
So yeah , somehow i am worried about you . I don't know why , but as i told you earlier that i don't feel good right .
Maybe that's why i'm like super worried about you and it affected me too much laa , i got too carried away .
Well yknow what ? I just can't stop thinking about you dari tadi , well actually i think about you like 24/7 laa actually .
If only you knew how much i miss you right now , i feel so guilty right now . Because i actually talked that way to you ):
Believe me when i say i'm also badly affected by all this , i mean like really .
Somehow i sense that you missed the old us , i miss us as much as you do too .
But it's just hard to go back to the way we were , cause your just not the old you , the one that you used to be .
I have been treating you the same way ever since the first day until today , but perhaps it's both of our fault .
We can do so much better than this i believe , but it's just that we don't communicate the same way we did back then .
We no longer text just talking nonsense or we don't text just irritating each other anymore , it's always serious .
Or even we don't text at all , i missed how your texts would make me smile like one mad girl in the train alone ,
how your texts would make me cry like one budak gilee in the train , how i would smile endlessly while texting with you
and how i would text you saying that my perut pain padehal i cume nak kencing sahaja ^^.
I missed how we would actually text each other padehal kite kat depan mate , and how we would smile while we reach each other texts and look at each other and just simply laugh . I missed it all , i missed you crying on me .
Baby , i'm sorry that we became like this . I feel as though it's all my fault that we're not like before anymore .
I do want us to be like before , sumpah. As i've said , i'm trying my best here . Please try with me ,
Have patience with me . I've changed so so much in this journey of ours , i am trying my very best .
Remember the times we used to have back then over at telokblangah ? haha!
How much you crieed on me , and how much i cried on you as well . How you texted me telling me not to ever leave you ?
And how you cried on me when you heard me sing 'Disaat aku mencintai mu' ?
I really missed those moments where you'll cry on me , truthfully i missed that . Your tears back then made me realise how much i meant to you ):
I'm here crying like one small baby because i'm listening to 'Disaat aku mencintai mu' i just really wished we could cry on each other again like before .
Ita harap fad tahu yang ita sayangkan fad melebihi apape pun dan untuk mempersiakan fad adalah sesuatu yang ita takkan pernah lakukan .
Ita menangis bukan kerana ita rasa yang fad tak sayangkan ita , tak . Tapi kerana ita rindu fad , ita rindu masamasa kita dulu ,
ita rindu fad peluk ita bile ita nangis , dan bilang ita yang semuanya akan baikbaik jeh .
Ita tak mintak lebih fad , ita cume nak fad happy , ita cume ingin kesempatan itu untuk buat fad tersenyum dengan kehadiran ita didalam hidup fad .
Ita sedih kerana ita hanya boleh buat fad sedih , dan ita sedih kerana fad rasa yang kita dah tak macam dulu .
Shit happens honey , iknow that too . Things change and people change , in a way or so we did change ,
but one thing for sure that will never change is my love for you , it grew stronger each and every day baby .
I hope you know that too , and i too hope you feel that way as well . Yknow , you stopped updating your blog and i no longer get to know your inner feelings . I'm a lil disspointed actually , because i can't connect to you anymore since you stopped blogging .
You don't always open up to me , you always kept things to yourself , and the only way for me to know what your feeling is thru your blog .
Can i just have one request right here ? Once you've read this , please update your blog .
I care , and i do wanna know what's bothering you love . If i'm lacking in something i wanna know what it is and i wanna fix it .
You jolly well know that i wanna make this last , i want us to last . And i would do anything just to fix whatever that isn't going right .
I don't want to put us to waste , yknow how much you mean to me baby . Yknow that iloveyou more than anything else in this whole world .
I'm really sorry , and i will fix myself up . I fucked up this time for talking to you like that earlier , and i hate myself for that .
I'm really sorry , iloveyou my one and only AngryBabi <3
13thLoveConfessions till eternity , CintaTigaBelas Hingga Akhir Hayat <3
Ita sayaaaaaaaang Fafad , muahmuahmuah! <3
Please update your blog Baby , please .
I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 2:37 AM
@ 2:37 AM
♥Saturday, October 8, 2011♥
Right now i'm sitting here in my room just smoking away while Babybro and Baby busy with their hp -.-
Pity me , no one to entertain me ):
But it's okay i'll just find something to do >.< mehehe.
I don't really know what's wrong or what went wrong or what i did or what is the matter here .
Somehow i'm glad that my relationship didn't start out to be all perfect and we'll be like that perfect happy couple .
Cause yknow what people always say right , 'Baru'baru semua nya indah , lama'lama semua nya berubah.'
The starting of my story with Baby wasn't all happy at start , i went thru alot of hurt and we went thru so much to get to where we are right now .
And i'll just wait to see what's next coming our way , for sure i'm strong enough to go thru all this obstacles and i hope baby will be too .
I remembered the times when Baby said to me to tell her whenever she's doing something that i don't like and i agreed .
In return i asked her to do the same , somehow it's not that i wanna change Baby because i know who i fell in love with and she's the type of person who will keep everything to herself . And i'm accepting her for who she is , i swear i don't wanna change a lil bit of her .
But i just don't want her to hurt anymore , that's the reason for me asking her to open up . But then again , it's up to her . It ain't up to me , it's her choice whether to change or not .
I love her just the way she is , but things just get so hard sometimes that i just keep on wondering just where did i go wrong .
Whatever that i say just sounds so wrong to her and sometimes i just wished i didn't say any of those words .
I always fuck up , when times just got better and i feel so bad that i just feel like crying my eyes out each time it happened )':
I feel like sucha failure , i just keep on fucking up . I hate myself so damn much , even right now .
I don't know what's bothering Baby , i tried to cheer her up earlier but it just didn't work .
Suddenly this happened , and she posted all those stuffs on fb . I don't know just where did i go wrong this time .
Baby please , let me know if i did something to piss you off . Please don't keep me in the dark , yknow i don't like leaving things hanging .
That's just not me , but we're just being so different right now . Even when you said we'll just act as if nothing happened but still we're different aren't we ? Because deep down we both know something just ain't right .
Don't keep everything to yourself please Baby , i don't want you to keep on faking and then you'll be hurting yourself .
Hais )':
I just hope that thing's will get better soon ): I'm out . Bye .
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I cant get enough of your love ♥
@ 1:34 AM
@ 1:34 AM
♥Monday, October 3, 2011♥
At times , i wonder why does things have to get so ugly when it's the times that i need you most next to me .
I'm aware that things don't always go the way we want them to , but then again it's a whole different thing if we're like this .
I'm here , just plain thinking of the past , i'm having flashbacks . And it just lead me to tears , is it me to be blamed for all this ?
Well , yes . I think it's my fault that all this happened , maybe i asked too much questions and maybe i just tend to be very insecure about myself .
Every relationship will go thru this kinds of time , but i hope your strong enough to stay on the track .
I admit that yes i've changed , i'm not sure of the reason . Maybe it's because we've been apart for so many days which we've never been this way before . This is the first time we've been apart for this long , I just missed the way we used to be .
You just won't be the same person anymore , it's easy for me to change right back because this is not me .
But things still won't be the same , things didn't turn out the way we always expect them to .
But we are suposed to make the best of the situation , and i can't be doing this alone . I need you to do it together with me .
What's really wrong this time , just where did i go wrong in us . I just keep on thinking .
You keep on jumping into conclusions thinking that i don't trust you and that i'm still having doubts in you .
Where else that's not even the reasons why i said those stuffs , yes i do know that you always do things with a reason .
But bare in mind , i also always say things with a reason .
You said that i've changed and you think that my love for you has fade , what if i would to say the same thing about you ?
So far , until today my love for you hasnt changed even a little bit . No matter what we may be going thru or how hurt i am ,
still my love for you will never fade . Right now , all i can think about doing is just fixing all this .
But then again , it's all up to you whether or not you wanna fix this mess .
I don't even know why are we in this position , this is so not easy for me cause i'm really missing you so much .
All i want is just to spend my time with you and try to bring the old us back , i can't be trying to do that alone baby .
We'll have to do it together , *looksdown*
I've been crying so much , and it made me realise how much i don't want to lose you . If i'm at fault for making you feel this way , i'm sorry .
I didn't have the intention to make you sad or down , i'm to be blamed . I feel dissapointed with myself actually , because i can never make you happy enough with me . I wish i could make you happy with me , not give you problems or even make you sad .
I'm truely sorry , because i'm the cause of your sadness . Baby , that's not what i intended to do .
It kills me inside slowly if your hurt , i know i did say that i just wanna make you happy and that's the reason why i feel like as though i failed .
Because your still sad and down up till today ):
I've tried to be the best for you , but maybe my best just isn't enough . I'll have to try harder , i'm sorry if you feel bored with all the fights and fuss .
*wipetears*
Baby , please stay strong with me here . I'm trying to be the best of myself for you right now , and all i need from you is your support .
I just need you to love me for the way i am , and just give me the attention that i need .
Just as much as you need my attention , that's how much i need yours too ):
I'm not saying that you've not been givinng me enough attention all this time , no . But i'm just telling you , don't get the wrong idea hor .
I hope we'll fix things soon , *looksdownandwipetears*
I missed you so much , iloveyou always my AngryBabi <3
*coverface*
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I cant get enough of your love ♥
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