♥Thursday, October 20, 2011♥
I'm watching tv right now alone in the living room , decently waiting for Baby's reply .
Okay , i think i really suck so much today , because i kinda like treated Baby like shit .
I admit , and i'm veryvery sorry Baby . I totally didn't mean it really .
I hope you tak fikir bukanbukan ye , yknow how i am when i get all worried about you right ?
So yeah , somehow i am worried about you . I don't know why , but as i told you earlier that i don't feel good right .
Maybe that's why i'm like super worried about you and it affected me too much laa , i got too carried away .
Well yknow what ? I just can't stop thinking about you dari tadi , well actually i think about you like 24/7 laa actually .
If only you knew how much i miss you right now , i feel so guilty right now . Because i actually talked that way to you ):
Believe me when i say i'm also badly affected by all this , i mean like really .
Somehow i sense that you missed the old us , i miss us as much as you do too .
But it's just hard to go back to the way we were , cause your just not the old you , the one that you used to be .
I have been treating you the same way ever since the first day until today , but perhaps it's both of our fault .
We can do so much better than this i believe , but it's just that we don't communicate the same way we did back then .
We no longer text just talking nonsense or we don't text just irritating each other anymore , it's always serious .
Or even we don't text at all , i missed how your texts would make me smile like one mad girl in the train alone ,
how your texts would make me cry like one budak gilee in the train , how i would smile endlessly while texting with you
and how i would text you saying that my perut pain padehal i cume nak kencing sahaja ^^.
I missed how we would actually text each other padehal kite kat depan mate , and how we would smile while we reach each other texts and look at each other and just simply laugh . I missed it all , i missed you crying on me .
Baby , i'm sorry that we became like this . I feel as though it's all my fault that we're not like before anymore .
I do want us to be like before , sumpah. As i've said , i'm trying my best here . Please try with me ,
Have patience with me . I've changed so so much in this journey of ours , i am trying my very best .
Remember the times we used to have back then over at telokblangah ? haha!
How much you crieed on me , and how much i cried on you as well . How you texted me telling me not to ever leave you ?
And how you cried on me when you heard me sing 'Disaat aku mencintai mu' ?
I really missed those moments where you'll cry on me , truthfully i missed that . Your tears back then made me realise how much i meant to you ):
I'm here crying like one small baby because i'm listening to 'Disaat aku mencintai mu' i just really wished we could cry on each other again like before .
Ita harap fad tahu yang ita sayangkan fad melebihi apape pun dan untuk mempersiakan fad adalah sesuatu yang ita takkan pernah lakukan .
Ita menangis bukan kerana ita rasa yang fad tak sayangkan ita , tak . Tapi kerana ita rindu fad , ita rindu masamasa kita dulu ,
ita rindu fad peluk ita bile ita nangis , dan bilang ita yang semuanya akan baikbaik jeh .
Ita tak mintak lebih fad , ita cume nak fad happy , ita cume ingin kesempatan itu untuk buat fad tersenyum dengan kehadiran ita didalam hidup fad .
Ita sedih kerana ita hanya boleh buat fad sedih , dan ita sedih kerana fad rasa yang kita dah tak macam dulu .
Shit happens honey , iknow that too . Things change and people change , in a way or so we did change ,
but one thing for sure that will never change is my love for you , it grew stronger each and every day baby .
I hope you know that too , and i too hope you feel that way as well . Yknow , you stopped updating your blog and i no longer get to know your inner feelings . I'm a lil disspointed actually , because i can't connect to you anymore since you stopped blogging .
You don't always open up to me , you always kept things to yourself , and the only way for me to know what your feeling is thru your blog .
Can i just have one request right here ? Once you've read this , please update your blog .
I care , and i do wanna know what's bothering you love . If i'm lacking in something i wanna know what it is and i wanna fix it .
You jolly well know that i wanna make this last , i want us to last . And i would do anything just to fix whatever that isn't going right .
I don't want to put us to waste , yknow how much you mean to me baby . Yknow that iloveyou more than anything else in this whole world .
I'm really sorry , and i will fix myself up . I fucked up this time for talking to you like that earlier , and i hate myself for that .
I'm really sorry , iloveyou my one and only AngryBabi <3
13thLoveConfessions till eternity , CintaTigaBelas Hingga Akhir Hayat <3
Ita sayaaaaaaaang Fafad , muahmuahmuah! <3
Please update your blog Baby , please .
I cant get enough of your love ♥
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