♥Saturday, July 14, 2012♥
It's been so long since i last updated this dusty blog of mine, im back! cheh~
Hanya untuk sementare saje :P There are reasons to why i decided to update my blog today,
being bored isn't one of the reasons okay (:
I was reading thru my old posts and Baby is doing the same too right now as i'm here busy updating,
and i'm having major flashbacks here. I don't know about you over there Baby but i am (:
Well, honestly the moment you came back in my life i was falling. The floor was missing me wayway too much, somehow you picked me up and lifted me high making me realise that i was way stronger than i thought i was. I didn't know i had that strength in me, yess all this while imma weak girl, i have always been a weak girl but you found that strength in me and you had me standing in no time (:
Thankyou love for being there for me when i was in need, and thankyou for coming back into my life.
Here's a little confession from me, when you left me, i admit i was broken. I was in sucha mess, i didn't know what i was gonna do with my life anymore. Like there's no more meaning to life, yess it was that bad. I took stuffs i wasn't supposed to, i did things i wasn't supposed to, i was out of control and out of my senses ofcos. I couldn't even think straight, all i could think about was you at that point of time but i had to make myself accept the fact that your happier with someone else. Like i've said oh so many times, your happiness means the most to me and if your happy i will be too no matter how much it may hurt me (':
I've proven my words by actions, i didn't even bother you i let you live your life happily and i just kept all of my sorrows and sadness to myself.
I cried myself to sleep everynight, hugging your pillow thinking why did we had to end the way we did, it killed me inside everytime i see the fullmoon, looking thru our pictures in my phone made me go crazy thinking how could something so sweet ended up like this.
All of those thoughts made me go wild, i lost control of myself and i ended up being a mess.
Nownow i don't wanna remember all of that, all that matters now is that your back and please don't punish yourself for what you did in the past Baby, because i've forgiven you way long ago already. Everyone makes mistakes sayang, kite smue manusia takde yang sempurna (:
Don't blame yourself for what you did, it was a mistake and as long as you know it is and you won't repeat the same mistakes again i'm happy enough sayang. You've gotta start making the right choices in life, umur kite pun dah makin meningkat sayang otak pun makin matang.
We're able to make our own choices in life, this words may sound familiar to you, temptations are everywhere Baby. It's our choice whether or not we give in to those temptations :D
You came back giving me so much care, love and attention that i've never felt from you before. I don't know whether or not it's just my feelings but i can feel that everything's more this time, the way you love is just more than you used to before. Maybe it's just my feelings or i forgot how lovely the feeling is to be loved by you, no one can ever compare to you Baby. Please know that, your the best there ever will be.
No one can love me like you do, no one can make me feel the way you do love. You do it best, i need you to know that no men can EVER compare to you. I wouldn't trade you in for any men in the world Baby and you have to know that, yess people may say we're lesbians and you'll surely lose if being compared to a guy. But not to me, them guys are just not good enough to my eyes. And i'd pick you over anyone anyday Baby.
Your the best i've ever had, and how much i wish i could hold you in my arms and call you mine again Baby. But i won't rush you, imma patient girl~
I know that i'll gain great things by being patient, and i've proven it once to you already (:
You proved to me something by buying me this lovely ring that's around my finger right now, it may just be a ring but it means so much to me than you'll ever know. Only god knows how i felt the moment you gave me that ring, i was so touched that you actually made the efforts to buy it for me. I've been wanting it for so long but why did you decide to get it for me now? It's a questions still not answered, well it's okay love, i'll wait for you to tell me, but thankyou so much for the present. You proved to me that you i actually mean more to you now than before because when i wanted this ring before you didn't put in enough efforts to get it for me and this time you did. There's a will there's a way (:
Heh.
I'll never hurt you the way any other girls did Baby, although i know when we were together i did hurt you too and im sorry ):
I didn't mean to, but that's parts and puzzles of being in a relationship i guess right?
But for sure i won't trade you in for no one, and i wouldn't cheat on you Baby, never! No girl can love you more then i do :D
Baby, truth is i've never stopped loving you since the day you left. I've always kept you in my heart all this while hopping you'd come back to me.
I still love you oh so much Baby, i really want to call you officially mine again, i want to be able to hold you in my arms and not being afraid to answer to anyone, i want to be able to kiss you and not think of what people are gonna say, i wanna be able to have the rights to stop you from doing the things you shouldn't be doing, i dont wanna be hidden no more, i want you to be proud to call me your one and only BabyGirlfriend again *wipestears*
But i'll wait (': When the time is right it will happen, if your meant to be mine, you'll be back in my arms once again (':
But love, please don't leave for the third time. I won't be able to face the moment when you leave again, i'll break for sure ):
This is more than enough for me now, as long as i have you by my side im happy enough~
I Still Love You Oh So Much BabySayang, let time tell this tale~
13thLoveConfessions Till Eternity <3
Ita sayanggg Fafad *muahmuahmuah!*
I cant get enough of your love ♥
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